tears of lettin go.

i look so weird. ><

hellos.

another week has passed. exams starting the upcoming week. :< ultra stress.

through this week , alot alot alot of things has happened. idk if you all have realised but i just wish for holidays to come faster. perharps this will be the chance to not see you guys and him.
PERHARPS. i want some time alone.
i admit i wasnt feeling really in the best of mood or rather was feeling rather irritated and stressed up and confused over alot of matters.

if thats what you call attitude , so be it. and at the very least she know part of whats going on and you dont. so whats the point of saying me if you dont even know what happened. its of no use alright. you always do this and do that to your own liking. you say you dont like this person then restrict me and her from going to that person then now you like that person then you like suck up to her. whats the point. i seriously dont understand.
to another person (you know who you are)
to tell you the truth , its a matter of time this will happen. life is just but going through obstacles and overcoming them and to await anoher obstacle to come. if we cant even cross this , then im afraid we cant be BOFs anymore. i didnt treat you that way because i feel like it but just that im seriosuly very stress over stuffs that i do not wish to say. the reason why i treat you and others differently is because i thought you would understand and perharps i could tell you some other time. but apparently you hought it in a different point of view. i hav 1 o word which is sorry. i didnt mean it but seriously my emotions are like different and changing almost every second. perharps its just stress. if you think that i pangseh you for the past few days, then im sorry. but have thought about it. is it you who changed or was it me. maybe thats going to be a question left unanswered.

okay. sorry peeps. wasnt feeling really good. because of studies ? him ? other stuffs ? idk. but i know because of that. im having like pms. >< bu seriously im tired.
how i wish for exams to finish soon. IM ULTRA TIRED ! both emotionally and physically alright ?

idk why but i have the urge to cry. perharps is about you or about the incident that i came to knew ytd. anws thanks to those wh tried to like kinda stop me from knowing the truth in order to protect me. (: but if i knew the truth earlier , wouldnt it be better ? or maybe not. idk. perharps i want to cry everything all out and i will be fine.
can i have a shoulder to lean on ? JKJK. (:

ok lah. i very lazy to type all out throughout this whole week. so sorry peeps.

to that idiot.
i was thinking after what christine told me ytd. why was i such a retarded to even cry for you. even if i do, would ou even care or evn know i guess no right. I WANT TO ERASE ALL THE MEMORIES BETWEEN US AND I WILL TREAT IT THAT YOU HAVE NEVER BENN INTO MY LIFE AND YOUR NAME WILL NEVER APPEAR IN MY DICTIONARY ! you asshole. hmph!

heehee. thought it through today. i ahve never felt so stupid before ok.
and ok lah. i cried myself to sleep ytd. (: i wonder when was the last time i cried myself to sleep. and when i woke up , my eyes were kinda puffy. O.O
i still feel like crying how ? :<
do you really have such a great impact on me ? idk.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW !

okok. i very tired of all those scolding and those talking. its been a pretty long post i know. sorry guys. just needed some place to vent it all off.
i wanna go facebook-ing le. heehee. byebye and night peeps !




letting go can be hard. or easy. depending on what you have left behind.
am i thinkin too much thus causing it too hard for me to let go ?

im really letting go.