thank you for being such a sweetheart.

after 11 days of hanging onto his dear life, xiaobai passed away yesterday. 

i will never forget him, never forget what a cutie pie he was, never forget everything about him. 

14 november 2012, i will never forget this day. its the day that i lost you forever. 

rushing back home just to see him for the last time before returning back to school and how i was the last one to carry him, and how we buried him. 

this heartache, is more than i can ever take. every time i walk there to visit him, my heart would ache so much and tears would well up in my eyes. i miss him so so so much. 

the last few days of his life was so hard for my family to even watch him. how he became skinnier as there was no intake of food or water. how he eventually became too weak to walk. how elated he was when i brought him downstairs for a walk and despite the lack of energy, he still got up on his feet to walk the last few steps before falling down again. until tuesday morning, he totally lost the energy to stand and could only drag himself on the floor. its really heartbreaking to see him from being such a hyperactive cat to being so weak. 

im sorry my dear. i wasnt there when you took your last breath. i didnt notice that your time is going to be up when you meow at me before i left house. im so so sorry. i hope wherever you are now, its a happier place for you. free of pain, hunger, cat fights. just know that we miss you dearly and you are still loved by us. i hope you will never never forget me. thank you for the memories of the past 11 months. i love you so much. 

always in our living memory.
we miss you sweetheart.