the pain of losing someone truly close to you eventually will fade. but the memories are forever. i think the one that hits us most if the fact that we know that they wont be coming back. that's what breaks me down the most. and the memories, they just make it worse. there wont be another smile like there's. there wont be another laugh like there's. there wont be another time i get to spend time with him. we're just being left lonely with a feeling of debt to them. wishing we could have done whatever could've helped to keep the person here. but death is going to happen. we cant hide or run away from it. its a part of the circle of life. for example, a flower is growing, soon as its fully grown, its seeds fall off. it will produce new flowers. shrivel up and die just like us. we're born, we grow up, have kids, grow old and then die. i know losing someone is hard, but we should feel glad that we got to be apart of their life.
happy 70th birthday, ah gong. <3 p="p">
i hope youre doing fine wherever you are. this would be the first year that we are not celebrating your birthday. perhaps its just me, i feel weird. im sorry for not learning to cherish the times when you were around and only learn to regret after we have lost you forever. i will never be able to forget 19th February 2012 because thats the day that we lost you forever. my greatest regret : none of us were there by your side when you took your last breath and we hadnt heard your last words. you were all alone. nothing i say now can bring you back to life, but i miss your presence around in the house so much. :( i wish we had photos taken together but none was taken in my 17 years of life. im so sorry about that. when i was younger, you used to dote on me so much. i wish i had learn to treasure but its too late for regrets. its so quiet without you around and ahma looks so lonely. i wish i have more time for her but i have my own commitments too. i dont want to have any regrets anymore.
we miss you.
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