life.

 was hospitalised during the past week end due to gastritis (some stomach inflammation thingy). :( felt so horrible. went to see a clinic doctor during the evening but it didnt get any better so decided to go to A&E. doctor wanted to keep me under observation and wanted to make sure im fine before i go home so i had to stay for a night. had so much sleep that day that my dark eye rings lighten already HAHAHA. 

thank you everyone who cared, be it by SMS, instagram or twitter. :) the power of technology. LOL. 

have to go back on the 30th oct for blood test and 7th nov for doctor's consultation. AHHH IM SCARED FOR THE BLOOD TEST. not the drawing blood part but the not knowing what the results will be part. *keeping my fingers crossed* 

 thank you love for taking urgent leave from work on friday to come to my house to accompany me to see doctor and heading back to work after that :o appreciate it so much baby. and thanks for staying with me that night just to make sure that im feeling better even though i didnt and have to go to the hospital. sorry to make you worry but im better now! :) barely feel the pain, just a little. <3 p="p">

hey lovelies, thanks for visiting me at the hospital! thanks jarrett for accompanying me for almost the whole first day at the hospital though you were really sleepy and fell asleep at the bedside HAHAH. :p thanks vanessa for popping by halfway through work! and thanks sean for coming to visit though your parents didnt let and all. you guys are really awesome. ^^ 

THIS IS ME. HAHAHA HAMBURGER FACE. 

i miss those times when i was young and i really regret not cherishing them. why are we made to learn how to cherish when we grow up and when that happens, everything is too late. that feeling totally sucks. 

i wish i had learned to cherish my grandfather long before he was gone. he doted on me so much and till his last breath, he was still worried about my siblings and I the most because our father abandoned us for another woman and my mum is bringing us up by herself. :( 

a funeral at my void deck reminded me everything about him. from the memories that i still remember when i was young till the 5 days of his funeral and i started crying again. 我还是放不下. everything is too late now. i can only cherish those that i still have around me. 

so much for life. 

i hate getting so emotional at times. :( 

OKAY BYE.