whats wrong with this world?

today, i learnt a new lesson. i should have known not to trust people so much. sometimes, i really think that im so gullible. someone, that i trust alot alot alot, did something that i dont think i can forgive him for. its beyond my principles. i totally hate it when people does that. forget it, i dont think i will ever trust him that much again. just going to take it as a lesson learnt. seriously, fuck this world. i was just trying to help but somehow, someone is going to twist it again. okay, its going to be my fault. it really doesnt pay to be too kind. FML. 

SBM FMO 2012!

HELLO.

SOOO, NYP'S SBM FRESHMEN ORIENTATION IS OFFICIALLY OVER! ^^ ITS A 2 DAYS ORIENTATION IN SCHOOL & WE HAD A REALLY FUN TIME BONDING WITH NEW CLASSMATES & OGL. IT WAS REALLY FUN! THERE WERE TALKS, DRY GAMES & WET GAMES & MASS DANCE! THIS WOULD BE ONE OF THE ORIENTATION THAT I CANT FORGET. HEEHEE. 

i shall let the photos do the talking! 

 HS1201! LOVE THIS CLASS! WE GOT BONDED VERY QUICKLY & IT WAS CERTAINLY A FUN TIME WITH THEM! IM SURE WE WILL HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD! :)

 THIS IS MY SUPER FRIENDLY BROTHER PLUS OGL OF ANOTHER CLASS! ITS A PITY THAT HE WASNT THE OGL FOR MY CLASS IF NOT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HELL LOTS OF FUN! ^^ WELL, HE IS REALLY NICE TO ME & GAVE ME SUPER SPECIAL TREATMENTS BY POURING A PACKET OF WATER ON ME DURING WET GAMES! UGHHHHH. HAHAHA I WILL GET MY REVENGE! THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN AWESOME BROTHER! SEE YA IN NYP! ;) 

SMB FMO 2012 ROCK ON! 

FRESHIES AS WELL AS THE OGL ARE ALL AWESOME! STAY AWESOME NYP-IANS. :)

im positive that i didnt make the wrong decision to enter NYP now! their orientation is really awesome! & the people there are friendly too! looking forward to the new school year! 

SBM SUP SUP OIIIIII! ^^

FRESHMEN YEAR.

was working over the last weekend at suntec convention centre, invest fair! :) working for SPH to ask people to subscribe to their newspapers (so practically, im selling newspapers -.-) was working with my sis & 2 other guys that we just knew! it was certainly fun working with them! hahah they are really funny after we got to know each other better! but, met a perv there too. disgusting asshole. 

but oh well, it was fun working & making new friends! ^^

ORIENTATION IS TOMORROW. OHMYGOD. :( IM SO NOT PREPARED FOR SCHOOL. ESPECIALLY WHEN DURING ORIENTATION, GOTTA MAKE NEW FRIENDS. BUT WELL, A BRAND NEW BEGINNING, A BRAND NEW START. WHY NOT? :) LIKE WHAT THEY SAY, THE BEGINNING IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST. I BELIEVE IT WILL GET BETTER! LALALA. 

orientation is like from 8.30am - 9pm. the shit right? -.- 

im so not going to get used to school life without those usual faces around. its gonna be so weird walking around, seeing unfamiliar faces. still, secondary school is the best. i really miss those days when i was in secondary school! :( i miss my 4E1`11. :( i miss my schoolmates. :(

but, everything's gonna end some day. no matter what, theres an end to everything. whether we want it to or not. 

i hope that everyone will have a brand new beginning to their life! take care my friends. :)

OKAY BYE. :)

it must have been love.

hey dearest,

today is your birthday. happy 17th birthday! its really great knowing you & being there for you. im glad youre strong enough to fight for our love, knowing that no matter how many times we fought, youre always there for me, giving me the courage to move on & ask me not to give up. youve always been there for me & always willing to accompany me with an open arms. :) its your birthday! please be more mature & stop being so childish! HAHAHA dont give me your innocent look when you know you did something wrong! dont work on me! hee. its a sad thing that we cant celebrate your birthday this year. :( because of your mother. well, i hope you enjoyed this morning short time together baby! dont worry, we will find a day after poly starts & go out for a mini belated celebration okay? & you will get your present then too! ^^ thank you for everything! enjoy your day to fullest yeah (although i know you prolly wont) ? 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! 

in life, we learn lessons. sometimes we learn it the hard way, sometimes we learn too late. for me, i learn lessons too late. i need to say im sorry & this is the best way i know how. we had a big fight just yesterday. it totally suck. :( im sorry love. its all because of me. i will try to change okay? i promise. :)

Remember you're with me, I'm glad that you're mine and I'm yours. But just remember some things, I hate it when we fight, I hate the way we ignore each other, I hate when I'll cry every night. Nothings will ever make me smile if we let each other down. Baby don't forget that you're the only one who'll make me smile, you're the only one who'll make my day. don't forget, that you're my everything. Remember the day we met? We did not expect us to be what we are today. But I realised for somethings, I never ever thought a guy like you would ever come to me. Of all why you? Perhaps you will be my other half. Nothing can describe the way I feel when I'm with you. You're the sunrise to my day, I'll do the same to you too. When I need you, I know you will be there. I know you're trying your best. Baby please don't have any doubts, after every down we face. I really love you, with my only heart and sou. You're my only one. xoxo *hearts*

iloveyou. <3<3

loved ones.

this year, i have been dealing alot with loved ones passing away & all. the feeling really suck yknow?

went to 扫墓 with my grandmother & uncle today. went to my great-grandmother's tomb & the temple which my grandfather's ashes are at now. its my first time doing all these things as i was busy with school the past few years & couldnt go with them. we went to my great-grandmother's tomb first & went to my grandmother's mother which is my great-grandma's tomb as it was nearby. before we even reached there, she was tearing alr. i could see how much she miss her mum & it was even more heartbreaking that they havent went to pay respects to her yet.

yesterday, she told me many stories about the early days. about my grandfather, about her, about her mum & all. after listening, i suddenly feel that teenagers nowadays are really lucky. its unlike those days when they were often bullied by siblings & had to do all sorts of chores. 我们真的是身在福中不知福. 

listening to stories of her past, somehow makes me feel sort of enlightened but it also makes me feel that she is really pitiful. :( i never knew that her past is that horrible. :( 

okay bye.

WTF.

whats up with parents these days? seriously. 

first, my 'dad'. EX DAD I MEAN. he totally suck. big time. 

come on, you dont want pay for my poly education nor my laptop & now, you dont even want to give us that little amount of money for pocket money every month? how fucked up can you get? seriously. just twp sets of formal wear for my sis & i & youre like 'why me again? just gave you $100 each.' my mum is paying for our poly education, daily expenses & all. that hard to even buy that for us? yknow what? go fuck off. with that woman that you gave us up for her. dont come back for us when she leaves you okay. dream on that we will want you back. we shall see about it. cant wait till im 21. i wont have to go out with you ANYMORE. the word 'daddy' has become so unfamiliar to me. has not been saying that word for at least 5 years alr? dont expect me to say it anymore. get it right. i have no father ever since i was 10. im getting along fine with it. & i will continue to be. I HATE YOU. 

next, love's mum. i know i have no right to say anything about her but she is really getting on my nerves. at chalet, she called you 2 times to ask if im there with you. you lied saying that im not there & she even asked you to go home straight away if im there. wtf. i will never be your mother's favourite. idk whats going to happen in future. but right now, i feel so tired. everytime i go out with you, its like walking in a field filled with dynamite everywhere. she will call out of nowhere & thats it. come on, youre turning 17 next week alr. im really sick of it. not worth it breaking up with you because of her. i know but im really tired alr love. idk how long i can hold on. 

whats becoming to this world? someone, save me. im getting even more disappointed each day by what our parents are doing. my mood is really at its very bottom now. i could cry any moment. fuck this shit.

PAIN IN THE ASS.

HELLO :)

sooo, went for sec school chalet at NSRCC again. LOL. 

uhm, it was pretty much more enjoyable than the previous time?  well, at least i enjoyed myself!

we went night cycling from the chalet which is located near east coast park, all the way to changi village! :o far huh? we took about 3 hours for the journey to & fro. & when we got back, my butt & my legs hurt like shittttttttt. but, it was worth it though! hahaha

couple of friends were so nice that they treated us to prata & mac breakfast! awesomeeeeee. :)

cycled back to ECP & went to amk hub with love, to watch hunger games! 

been wanting to watch it & pestering him for it for a long long time! even though we were both pretty drained out from staying up almost the whole night, he still accompanied me to watch it! <3<3 how can i not love him? heehee. 

well well, the movie is nice but, its pretty brutal. >< especially when its about when they had to kill tributes from other districts. it was so sad, gross & anything disgusting. i dont think it should be rated PG13. really. even i was pretty grossed out by it. but still worth a watch! :)

OKAY. BYEBYE.