loved ones.

this year, i have been dealing alot with loved ones passing away & all. the feeling really suck yknow?

went to 扫墓 with my grandmother & uncle today. went to my great-grandmother's tomb & the temple which my grandfather's ashes are at now. its my first time doing all these things as i was busy with school the past few years & couldnt go with them. we went to my great-grandmother's tomb first & went to my grandmother's mother which is my great-grandma's tomb as it was nearby. before we even reached there, she was tearing alr. i could see how much she miss her mum & it was even more heartbreaking that they havent went to pay respects to her yet.

yesterday, she told me many stories about the early days. about my grandfather, about her, about her mum & all. after listening, i suddenly feel that teenagers nowadays are really lucky. its unlike those days when they were often bullied by siblings & had to do all sorts of chores. 我们真的是身在福中不知福. 

listening to stories of her past, somehow makes me feel sort of enlightened but it also makes me feel that she is really pitiful. :( i never knew that her past is that horrible. :( 

okay bye.