Thursday, July 12, 2012

没有你的第二天.


i used to think that we can be together forever no matter what. 
i understand that youre human and you make mistakes. i will forgive you despite how much my heart aches. but if one day i give up, its not because i stopped loving you but because my heart can only handle so much; understand that im human too. 
truth is, im still getting used to not receiving your good morning texts and good night calls. idk how much time i will need to get used to this. 
perhaps you have already realized that from yesterday onwards, there is a slight change in your life. there will be one less person to eat with you, to wish you good morning and to bicker with you. but all these are temporary. soon you will understand everything and a smile will appear on your face, without me putting it there. 
i hope youre doing fine now. or maybe not. i know its not easy on you but its not easy on me as well. 
in the past, idk how would life be like without you. perhaps im being too dependent on you. now, i would just want to learn to be dependent without relying on you. though life is really different without you, i know i have to get used to it and learn something from it. i still need you but i just want to try to independent. 

i miss secondary school days. :( its where everything seem so simple and happy. but after we graduate, everything changed. friends are no longer friends and the time that we have to keep in touch gets lesser. even after we graduate, politics still exist. sigh. when will all these be over? 

today is my grandmother's birthday. going for dinner soon. byebye. 

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