officially single for now. temporarily. i hope.
idk if i made the right choice by doing this but im sorry for hurting you. as much as i dont want to let go, i understand that somethings still have to end someday, whether you want it to or not. idk if the story of us ends here, but im sorry. i need time to clear my thoughts.
i appreciate all that you have done for me. really. be it trying to make me smile, trying your best to talk to me or whatsoever. but just so you know, nothing can make me happy if youre not by my side. this is true. if we were in the past. right now, no doubt, seeing you happy makes me happy but sometimes, im not really happy too.
1year7months. it has been a long journey. you may feel that my poly friends are more important than you, but its not true. they do make me happy, make me smile everyday in school but they can never make me feel the happiness that you once gave me.
what i miss is those days when you were courting me, is those days when we can see each other everyday, is those days when being happy with each other is all that we know. gradually, everything changed. we are not as happy as we were.
perhaps im expecting too much, perhaps im too demanding.
sorry. is all that i can say to you now.
maybe, seeing too much breakups have made me fear whether we can continue our relationship. but afterall, it all comes down to us. not others. im sorry.
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