two-o-o-nine

hellos.

today's NEW YEAR EVE!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
haha.

went out with shihui today. caught ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS. damn cute can?! (:
then went to get my bag and walk around and homed. haha.

yah. nothing much to crap. school's reopening soon. -.- hate it.

anws. byebye and nights.
its just a FEW more hours to 2010.
gonna miss 2009.




i've got so many things to say to you, so many questions to ask you. but i dont know where to start.

:D

hellos.

2nd post! ^^

got a new blogskin. like it much! ahaha.

ok lah. i wanna go sleep le. byebye and nighty nights! :D




everytime is like the first time. (:

everytime is like the first time ,

hellos.

tmr's sec 1 orientation. going back school. time flies uh. 2 years ago was still a newbie in school and went for orienation and everybody looking so nerdy. gosh. cant imagine that.
but its nice to think back to the past. (:

today. nothing much happen. talk on the phone with christine and the both of us become damn high lah. haha. :D

school's reopening next week. havent do my homework yet. haha. :p very lazy do. but next year will buck up de. ^^

haha. okok. nothing much to crap le. so byebye and nights! ^^




am i missing you alr?

bet you wont ,

hellos.

um. nothing happen much these days yah? sian.

school's reopening soon! whoo! ^^ or rather boo? ><
idk also. happy can see friends and go high again. sad because studies very hard and sec3 liao. OMG. so fast. LOLOLOLOLOL.

yah. got my books except for one. going back to school to get it. hmm. tmr still must go get uniform. sucks la. changing to pinafore. -.-

enough crapping. going out ltr might be back for a second post ltr. byebye! :D





the feeling is the kind that you will never understand.

arghh.. why do i have the urge to cry? -.-
feel like slapping that bitch's face. for goodness sake. its damn disgusting alright. eww.

shadow of my heart ,

hellos.

today is christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

hahas. yah. as usual. celebrated it with family. ^^ woke up at 12+ again. gosh. waking up so late evry morning. -.-

bathed and went to amk hub for lunch at ichiban sushi. eat until damn full. (: but damn shoik lah.
haha. after that walk around and had christmas gift from my mum. love her! :D
then homed.

was slacking at home. haha. until now then use comp.

today is the 25th of dec. 6 more days to 2010.
every 31st dec. im anticipating the arrival of the new year but this time im not.
this year seems to  past so fast. a blink of an eye , its the last 6 days of the year. gosh. im so gonna miss this year.
all those laughters, joy, tears, jokes and whatever that we shared after all can only be in our memories.
through thick and thin are we still close? i hope so.
yah.. im not looking foward to the new year. its just..

moody these days. cope up at home. but at least my sis still got pei me. haha. LOL.

enough crapping. byebye and nights peeps! :)




gosh. i feel that everything is changing and there aint a purpose in my presence anymore yah.

wish upon a star ,

hellos.

WOW. slept at 12+ last night and woke up at 1PM this morning. haha. was damn shoik arh. ^^
hmm.. could be going out tmr! buy clothes!

ohya. TODAY'S CHRISTMAS EVE! MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE!^^ HOHOHO!
sorry. im very high. :p

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wishlist and to-do list for now. :D

1. I WANT A NEW BAG. it cost $69.90. o.o
2. I WANT TO GO OUT! I DON WANT STAY AT HOME. ANYBODY? (:
3. movie marathon! i want to watch lots of movie.
4. get a study schledule done. haha.
5. to be a more happy and lively person! ^^
6. life to improve and more friends. :D
7. to have MORE sleep. and dont skip my meals anymore. haha.


yah. im missing those times when we used to go out together. when can we go out again?! -.-
im bored at home.

haha. yah. enough spamming. blog mr or some other time. (:
byebye and nights peeps!





will you be by me when i need you the most?

make me believe ,

hellos.

im back from overnight camp in sch. :D

it was fun! ^^ with all the seniors and of course friends.

band concert was great. enjoyed it pretty much. (:
after that had stay over. although there were bad moments but still enjoy it.
slept at 2+ and woke up at 7. like OMG.

went band room for xchange of presents. ^^ after that went mac with shihui and valerie for breakfast. was super eerie. was crapping over there. after that homed.

went popular to buy books after that. GOSH. its super heavy! >< the amount and weight of my books are equaivalent to my sis+bro books. imagine that. carry until i wanna go crazy.

came home unpack and slept. was super tired. from 4+ till 6+ haha. but still very tired. gonna sleep until late tmr. haha. :>

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sorry peeps. was kinda moody during the overnight camp. but felt better due to seniors and friends jokes and all those stuffs. ^^ thanks guys. alot lah. very lazy list out all. hahas.

ohya. sec 4s leaving alr. :< so sad lah. gonna miss them lots. but they will be back as alumni. but still will miss them lah.

made a card for sabrina. gosh. i love it so much. cause its the combine effort of everybody! ^^

yah. kay. enough crapping. will upload the photos soon. very tired now. :p

okok. nights peeps!






to get rid of the shadow its really hard. it haunts me everynight and tears will roll down. the hurt that has been done, can never be removed.

its everything between us.

hellos.

sorry for not posting the last 3 days. :<
was kinda busy with stuffs.

yah. and pretty tired too. physically due to the alot of band practices and emotionally due to ALOT of stuffs. personal stuffs though. not to be shared. hahas. kay lah. except to some peeps. :p

anws. tmr is the day of concert. like OMG  lah. so fast. T.T
um can say is prepared alr? hahas. still got some stuffs. but just some littlestuffs.

so wont be blogging for the next 2 days cause having overnight camp in school. (; ohyeah. ^^ cant wait for it. hahas.

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these days. been thinking about the same stuff over and over again. i know every single time i think of it tears will brim up to my eyes but it just left a huge impact on me though. and that shows how much hurting it is. true enough. i dont blame you alr. BUT everything seems to revolve around her. i can see the effort that the both of us are putting in to maintain it but what about eveyrone else? they dont understand how it feels. JUST the mention of name really kinda brings up the hate in me. i dont wish to but it cant be helped. whats done cant be undone. the scar is alr there. it can never be removed.

kay. i wanna go do other stuffs le. so byebye and nights. ^^






每一次强颜欢笑都很辛苦..
would anyone understand it?

behind every line is a lesson learnt.

hello.

um. yah. peeps. just ignore the previous post kay? not feeling very good then but now much better le. so yah. ^^

oh yeah. i gonna get a new bag for myself. it cost $70. OMG lah. T.T
tmr gonna get xmas presents. so gte ready for a good treat peeps!

kay. feeling kinda high today.

OMG. my eyes are swollen from ytd _____ . O.O

heh. yup. concert is coming up. like less than 3 days?!

ok. i wanna go blogshopping. byebye!




im happy to have fabulous friends! :D
*you guys know who you are*

the heartbreak never ends.

hello.

today post will be a super short post ok?

ytd 17/12/09

went dunman for exchange. it was fun. (: especially the interaction part. love it.

today 18/12/09

had full band followed by sectionals in school. band concert is coming up alr. OMG.

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you know something? if you are such a coward pls go find some courage alright. for your information this time im not going to make the first move again. SO WHAT if i cried. will you even care. you dont give a damn i guess. so why shld i care so much. wondering why i just walk off today. GO THINK BOUT WHAT YOU SAID. any fking idea how hurting it is. WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO SAY THAT TO YOU? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL. if you never realise. you have changed. change to someone that i dont even know. i want that old friend back. losing a friend isnt a good feeling.
to say the truth. if thats you want to know all my secrets.
have you ever thought of the EXACT reason why this happen. I CLEARLY KNOW.
i have tolerated long enough and i realise i cant hold much longer. IM TIRED.
will you understand?
if you wanna trash things out monday after band. appraoach me if not. you know.



anws many thanks to junhui , shihui and jiading. love guys lots.

im not really in the mood to post anything more so byebye and nights.



seriously. wtf.

finally the pain has passed ,

hellos.

today had band in the morning. :D

after that went out with junhui,jiading and christine. ^^
it wasfun.

ehub >> bugis >> home.

pretty shortday. but ENJOYED IT ALOT! ^^
it was super duper fun. laugh lik siao today.

and had lots of presents tday. THANKS LOTS!
♥ you guys lots. ^^

took some photos. though not together. :<

kay. enjoy the photos. byebye! tmr still got band. OMG. so tired.
nights. ^^

regretting ,

hellos.

today uh...
not much things happen. no band. just stay at home loh.

my sis is going to design a shoe for me as my bday present. ^^ so happy.

haiz. sorry guys. not really in the mood.

i just think that this blog isnt where i can say all the things in my heart out. once i say it out it would be damn obvious who im talking bout. so ya..
thinking of creating a secnd blog but private it up and rant everything there.? lets just see how it goes.

hmmm.. yah. will be uploading pics. so stay tuned. (:
byebye. :D





i know from the moment i gave you, everything would have changed.

too much to handle ,

hellos.

IM BACK! :D
had a tiring 3 days. but fun.

day 1 [10/12/09]
woke up. bathe. and off to genting. ^^
i swear i hate SUPER long bus rides. -.- makes me feel so sick.

reach genting. check in and went for lunch. after that walked ard. met my cousin and his family and took photo and all those stuffs.

went back hotel. couldnt really sleep.

day 2 [11/12/09]
woke up at 8 plus. ^^
had breakfast and off to theme park! ^^

played until like 12+ then my couin they all came cause they just woke up. hahas.
went to tried lots of rides and it was fun. ^^ though scary.

went for dinner with my cousin's family and ordered lots of stuffs lah.

and cousin keep bully me lah. stupid. take his sister's seahorse(fakeone) and hit my head when im eating icecream. -.- and all those stuffs lah. but it was fun. ^^
went shopping with him and my sis aft dinner and he keep making me and my sis laugh like 2 freaking mad woman. haha. LOL.

walked rd until 10+ then went back hotel le. i was so tired that after i bathed i fall asleep straight away. o.o haha.

day 3 [12/12/09]
ITS MY B'DAY! ^^
woke up. saw a message from JD. haha.
wash up andwent for breakfast then check out and walked ard buy stuffs.
finally 3+ board the bus and homed! ^^
HAHAS.

it was freaking cold over there but the weather was super nice. not even a single drop of rain during the 3 days. ^^

photos in the next post. stay tuned. ;D

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thanks alot to those that have wished me. LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS! <3

kay. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye! ^^





all the beautiful things in life are not seen not touched but are felt in the heart.

shattered pieces ,

hellos.

wow. IM GOING OVERSEAS TMR! WEE!
actually not very looking forward to it. ._.
dk why also.
so my blog will be dead for 3 days. ^^ ohya. and dont miss me too much kay. :p

haiz. found out that time really flies. so fast going mid-dec. SCHOOL GOING REOPEN LE.
dont want sia. sian.

ANDANDAND band concert coming up le! yay! LOL.

haiz. alot of things happen and ppl havent been feeling happy and of course that includes me. for whtever freaking reasons.
hope they will cheer up. ^^ you know who im talking bout. (:

aiya. i dont feel like blogging le. so byebye! ^^





all because of a stupid you.

what if everything was colourless ?

hellos earth-lings. ^^

haiz. raining again. everyday rain de loh. sian. thats not the point. nvm.

yup. IM GOING OVERSEAS ON THURS! WHOO! CANT WAIT. ^^
heehee.

tmr having band practice at sembawang cc. very tired sia. :<
nvm. hahas

ltr going library help shihui return her library book see i so good.hahas. jkjk. :p
ahh. but its raining leh. aiya see how it goes.

ohya. nearly forgot.
TODAY IS CHRISTINE YANG'S B'DAY. HAHAS.
HAPPY 14TH B'DAY!
14 LE GROW UP AND MATURE MORE! ^^
yupyup. hahas. HAVE A ENJOYABLE B'DAY YEAH? ^^
♥!

kay. i got nothing to crap le. so byebye! ^^






its not what i ever wanted.

paranoid ,

hellos.

today is a rainy day. (: good day to sleep in uh. hahas.
LOL.

going for some dinner at hougang today. sian. dont feel like going loh. ._.
forced to go. Zzz.

and heard from sunicia that the school comfrim change the girl's uniform le. wtf lah. heard that chnage to pinafore cos we fold our skirts. =.= WTH LAH. they change pinafore we cannot alter meh. LOL.

so YCKSS GIRLS! TAKE NOTE!
29TH DEC GO BACK SCHOOL BUY UNIFORM OK.

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im thinking was i so stupid to have pitied you and trusted you and whatever. i shld have known this since long ago. ITS THE STUPIDITY OF ME. whats the point of caring and treated you with all my heart as a friend at least when you give a damn attitude and like as though you hate me. what did i do. talk to your friends and you are jealous or what. pls lah. they DONT belong to you alright. tell you something ok.
I DONT GIVE A DAMN OF WHATEVER YOU DO ANYMORE AND I WILL JUST TREAT IT AS THOUGH YOU HAVE NEVER EXISTED. HAPPY.

sorry. was kinda pissed off. not telling you guys who that is.
its for me to know and for you to find out. ^^ HAHA.

ohya. and im broke now. :< sad. all because buy christine's present. WALAO. spent pver $50++ leh. i cry for you to see.
but the present is nice. ^^ hahas.

kay. i dont want crap le. byebye! :p







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SO WHAT.

hellos.

never blog for a few days le. so im here to blog. ^^

been having band camp the past few days. was pretty fine and fun. heehee.
BUT TIRING.

yah. then nothing much ba. OHYA im going overseas soon! WWEE! :D

hahas. kay. i gtg soon. going out with my sis. ^^ so byebye^^





i can tell you straight in the face. I OFFICIALLY HATE YOU.

trust ,

hellos.

today arh. very boring too. :< sad right? I HATE HOLIDAYS.

kay. i dont feel like blogging. SORRY. byebye. :)






what yours will be yours.

naive ,

hellos.

didnt go anywhere today. stayed home. BORED. AS USUAL.
christinewoke me up with 2 phone calls in the morning. ._.
AS USUAL HOR CHRISTINE. ^^

um yah. thats it. i think. gonna go plaza sing tmr to check out christine's present. TIRED SIA.

kay. nvm. byebye and nights peeps!






its the stupidity of me to have believed you.

promises ?

hellos.

went shopping with family today at bugis junction. ^^
brought lots of clothes. ♥ it.
but hor spent alot of my mom $$ i feel so bad loh. :<

after that homed. changed and everything then use comp. have to go off at 9. ^^

saw a bag at bugis junction and i love it alot! gonna get it! ^^

kay. byebye and nights! ^^




i will not and do not wish to believe anything you said anymore.

never ,

hellos.

band >> toa payoh >> amk hub >> home.

thats bout it for today.

was pretty tired after standing for one whole day.

my mum brought a new headset each for me and my sis. so good right? ^^

ohya and i drew $50 out from my bank acc cause NEED TO BUY CHRISTINE YANG'S PRESENT.
HAHAS! but my acc still got like $830++. O.o i didnt know im so rich. :p

kay. gonna take time to go and do somethings. who want pei me go? :< sian. nobody got time loh. going overseas soon. and MY B'DAY ALSO COMING LE! kay. im ike damn hyper now can?

hahas. kay. i wanna go back to facebook-ing le. byebye and nights! ^^






fairytale simply dont exist.

i thought it was forever ,

hellos.

woke up went for lunch and all those stuffs.

still having sunburn. :< very pain lah. and my leg still got alot of injuries loh. sad sia.

tmr having band. tired.

after that going to get presents with christine. hahas.

* my ama and all have been talking abt a girl who jump off the building at my opp blk. since morning man. go market eat also thn now my uncle come back still talking abt the same topic. haiz.

kay anws. byebye!

p.s. YAY. going wild wild wet again on 16 dec! cant wait. ^^






i had a dream.
it was SO REAL. i thought finally its the time.
but it turns out to be JUST A DREAM.

hey peeps. im sorry. pictures tmr kay? im really tired. :<

SORRY.

stars of love.

hellos.

ahh! very tired! just came back from class chalet. ^^

mon 231109
met shihui christine edwyn and nic at mac. had breakfast then went off to downtown.
crap on the mrt.
alighted and took bus. wated super long.
the girls went ntuc to get stuffs while the guys waited at mac.
we went to ntuc then walk around then went to arcade to take neoprint leaving the guys there to wait. hahas! so bad. went back. waited awhile then check in le.

unpack tehn slack awhile then get the rest of the stuffs then prepare for BBQ. started and all those stuffs lah.

went to pasir ris beach with some of them. creepy but fun. never tried that before. ^^
went back soon.

waited for the rest of them to leave then pack and bathe and then lie on the bed. wanted to ton whole night but slept at 1++. woke up at 4am+ due to the noisy EDWYN.
ater that slept all the way through.

tues 241109
9+ christine called. ._. tired sia.
went to pasir ris beach again. to take photos. went back changed. WILD WILD WET! wa.. paly until i super duper tired. and i tio sunburn! :<
went back bathe and checked out.
subway after that. homed. slept on the bus.

im damn freaking tired now. sunburn hurts and my throat hurts too. :< sick soon.

kay thats all peeps. i shall let the pictures do the talking. ^^ byebye and nights!






you cannot erase the past,
you must let it go.
you cannot change ytd,
you must accept the lessons learnt.

when we say goodbye .

hellos.

today is another BUSY BUSY day. but fun ^^

had band. was super suckish lah. stupid. 2 ppl how have sectionals. ==

went mac with my sis to meet nicholas. collected the money. though not all. but was super pissed loh. nvm.

went to ____ house after that. her brother so cute! ^^

left. went ntuc. brought stuffs. came my house here de SKP. closed. WTH. ._.
then forgte it went bookshop. brought stuffs then homed.

tmr still meeting up to do smething. hahas. for the chalet lah. ^^

class chalet!
venue : downtown coasta sands resort
date: 23-25 nov
time : day 1 : 5pm. bbq! whoo!

hope everything will work out fine. ^^ heehee.

kay. i very tired le. byebye and nights! :D





two different worlds.

collition of emotions ,

hellos.

had band in the morning. was fun though i was ultra tired. :>

went christine's house cos it was raining so heavily. imagine we are walking under shelter and yet we are still wet. imagine how heavy is the rain. (:

had lunch there. crapped. used comp. all that stuffs. then i realise her sister is damn ____ . fill in the blank yourself. ^^ no offence christine.

yup. homed. went to fetch my bro. VERY tired now. :<

at christine's house found out something that really REALLY pissed me off.
eh. wtf lah. just because i told you that we dont need your dad's help cos we dint want to trouble him and all those stuffs then you kp so much. think abt it first can. you also want fresh ingredients right. if you insist that the flavouring wont get in FINE. you dont eat. happy! damn fk-ing pissed off now lah.
we plan so hard yet you didnt even thankyou and over there kpkb. you think very easy plan isit. then you plan loh. stupid.


anws. gtg. have to call shihui abt the class chalet thing. an im SUPER DUPER UPER TIRED. NOW. byebye and nights peeps! :)




im really tired of waiting.

starry starry night ,

hellos.

2nd post. ^^

damn tired now. and having a headache. was with chihui since afternoon to plan bout th class outing, damn pekcek lah.
have to class EVER SINGLE human being in my class. imagine lah. Zzz.
I SWEAR NEXT TIME I DONT WANT PLAN LIAO.

yup. all the hard work is kinda worth it.
details comfirmed.

class chalet ! (:
venue : downtown east coasta sand.
date : 23 nov to 25 nov.

hope you guys will enjoy it. haha. (:

kay. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights!
gosh theres still band tmr. AAAHHHH !

if the world end today wouldnt it be good ,

hellos.

today been a pretty short day. woke up and then use comp and wenr for lunch.
came back use comp. then ltr going shihui's house to discuss class outing. ^^

yah. then like that first. come back for a second post later. bye. (:

collition of emotions ,

hellos.

had band today. was pretty fine.
then went opp wth the usual peeps to have lunch. haha.
crapped there and laughed alot. ^^

was discussing with them abt the class outing.
few options though.

1. marina barrage.
2. cycing.
3. wild wild wet.

havent decided which one to choose. 201! tag at my tagboard!

today. hack open my piggy bank.got $60 inside. hahas. trying to find more money. going out alot of times during decmeber. :< im broke. haiz.

yah. kay. i promise i will get the class otuing plan out soon alright? hahas. ^^

kay. i wanna go facebook-ing. byebye and nights ! (:





im just afraid..

LA LA LAND (:

hellos.

today went back to school in the morning to check the subject combi.
ITS A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME.
go there see and then go home. ._. retarded sia.
slack in school awhile with christine but left soon cause shes going to zoo and wild wild wet with her family.
then walked home.

thought about alot of things while walking. also about the ques christine ask me at the BBT shop. im not sure myself to say the truth. hahas.

anws. abt the class outing, might be changed to RASA SENTOSA. MAYBE only.
not comfirm. will try to get everything planned out soon! ^^

realise that time really files. half a month has past alr. soon,band camp coming. will die one. ==

haiz. my sis went to her friend's house to bake. AGAIN. and she uses my bag and just throw my things on the bed. WTH lah. ask also nvr ask my permission. asshole.

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realise that im going out many times during the december holidays. :>
with diff groups of ppl of course. but of course have christine in for every outing lah. hahas.
scared not enough money sia.
gonna declare bandkrupt soon. :<

kay. i want go youtube watch shows. ^^ hahas. sian. tmr got band again. Zzz.
anws. byebye! ^^





lets just hope its never too late. ^^

mixture ,

hellos.

2nd post. (:

now talking to shihui and edwyn on msn abt the class outing thingy. talk to edwyn until damn pekcek lah. Zzz.

suddenly talking to so many people.

tmr comfirm going back sch to check the subject combi. result le. meeting F.A. in school at 10. ^^
but hor. i not doing CIP. i feel so bad lah. lying to my mom. :<

kay lah. late le. i wanna go sleep le.

nights.




never gonna be the same anymore. (:

what if everything was colourless ?

hellos.

changed blogskin. AGAIN. (:
the previous one was pretty dull so yah.

woke up and went for lunch with familyat AMK hub ah mei cafe.
crowded. as usual.
walked around. eyeing on a shirt. ^^
brought stuffs and homed.

made mayo egg sandwich then watch tv. :DD

then use comp loh. until now. had pizza for dinner! yay! LOL.

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tmr might be going back school to check subject combi. .
maybe only.
shihui ask me do cip with her. dk whether to do or not. hahas. very lazy. :p

yah. and not fair loh. my sis since afternoon go out with her friends until now havent come back. ZZZ. throw me alone at home. ._.

kk. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights! ^^





promises? dont seem fulfilling now.. perharps im just being too sensitive.

awesome without you. ^^

hellos.

today went out. and blahblahblah. lazy elaborate.

planning a class outing with shihui. hopefully it will work ^^ details soon peeps!

and great. i havent finish e-learning. i dont feel like doing. very lazy do sia.

yup. these days. nothing much happen so lazy post. hahas. ^^

will try to update more ppl!

so, byebye and nights! (;




hey you, jealous much?!

its never real ,

hellos.

having a freaking headache now. dont know why. feel like fainting. ==

anws. went IMM with christine, cherie, edwyn, jiading and kelly today. hahas. damn funny. push push! hahas. christine and jd know what i mean hor. ^^ yup. had lots of fun today. (: especially jd hor. hahas. hmm. actually wanted to post something up de. but nvm. i good i dont post. HAHA. see i so guai. :p

yup. and yah. today band was great. ^^ nvr had such fun during band for so long. hahas. (;

kay. i seriously having a freaking headache. i no mood to post le. byebye and nights. ^^




listen to what your heart says.

temptation ,

hellos.

today woke up at 9.30. super tired. couldnt sleep last night lah. ==
then got ready and left house.

band was fine. but my section only got a pathetically 3 people. dont know where that starstar go again. ZZZ.

after that went hub and homed.

watch tv but fell asleep soon after that. (: heehee.
was woken up by christine yang at 7. i want sleep more! O.O tired.

yah. thn use comp until now loh.

tmr till got band. sian. ==

kay lah. tmr then update. ^^ byebye! and nighty nights! ^^





hmm.. a guy shld make the first move hor. christine. (: (she know what i mean. ^^)

i hate my mum.

just because my sis can draw is it really so fabulous?
i know i cant draw and everything i do is inferior to her.

so what if i studied hard for my exams and score so well when you dont even care.
got into 301 and you nvr say anything and no reward. wtf lah.

i dont care alr okay. my sis results are worse than me and you compliment her as though there is no tmr. her EOY level position 80 plus you say very good then what am i?!

yah yah yah. shes the best and shes good at everything and i suck. happy! suckers.

a piece of me ,

[edited]
hellos

2nd post of the day. (;

went to look for my sis just now and went popular with her. brought her stuffs and went back to hub. then to a bakery shop. == then walk home.

then finish up my e-learning. except for science and maths. gonna get help from my sis later. haha. ^^

sian. tmr got band. but 2h only. hahas. (:
very tired!

kay lah. i nothing to post le. byebye! ^^

p.s. somehow, i think christine really think like a boy. immature thinking? maybe. hahas. ^^
know why? cause :
10 nov 2009 tues
iris : are you a guy or a girl uh?
christine : guy.
iris : guys toilet over there. what you doing in the girls toilet? (:
christine : *suddenly realise* oh no! say wrong.
( two of is burst into laughter.)

we can conclude that christine doesnt think when she speaks. hahas.
she gonna kill me for this. :p



should i or should i not? o.o?

one step forward, two steps back ,

hellos.

today woke up quite late. ^^ havent eat anything since then. hahas.
later going to meet my sis. sian.

just now me and shihui was talking abt the cruise thing. and deciding if we want go or not. hahas. cause since ytd 林老师 call us and its free ma. so why not. hahas.
but still deciding in progress.

um. yah. come back for a second post later yah? hahs. byebye! ^^





being happy is not being perfect.

sophiscated ,

hellos.

today woke up at 8++. early uh. (:
bathe and everything. then went to hub to meet chrisitine.
AND CHRISTINE. im earlier kay. hahas. although both of us was late. haha.
then actaully want go cineleisure de. then christine cannot go ma. so stay at hub loh. see i so good. hahas. JKJK.
brought tickets for my sister's keepers. then went arcade play. hahas. got 26 tickets for free. ^^ took neoprints. hahas. ^^
then went into the cinema.

the show was nice. hahas. we cried. :'< it was very touching loh. should go and watch it. ^^ *thumbs up*

tehn homed. (:

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tehn use comp and all those stuffs lah.

i realise that i been every very little tehse days. literally LITTLE.
YTD.
1 cup mashed potato, 1 cup of drink and 1 egg tart. thats it. hahas

today
1 cup of ice milo.

hahas. thats how little i eat. dont know why im just not hungry. O.O? weird uh. hahas.

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rmb the promise we made?

- to go out together at least once a week.
- to call each other eveyrday.
- share ANY secrets.

if those are not fulfilled, you die. muahaha! ^^

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um. yah. i wanna go my e-learning le. byebye! ^^





i want to know the truth. (:

its nothing.

hellos.

2nd post of the day. ^^

changed url and changed blogskin. ^^ finally after so long. hahas.

rmb i said i will be doing my e-learning? by the end of the day, i realise i havent done 1 assignment yet. and im just slacking. :p hahas
dont feel like doing. heehee.

kay lah. im going to go off comp le. using it for almost for 1 full day le. byebye! (:
p.s. hope i can sleep peacefully tonight. :<




everything feels like its just a dream.

truth is i dont love you anymore. (:

hellos.

woke up at 12 today. couldnt sleep last night. :p
then went to have lunch cum breakfast then use comp until now loh. ^^

yesterday 8/11/09
went for steamboat instead of kbox. sat down tehre and ate for 2 continous hours. perharps cause i wasnt really in a good mood so juts eat to my content. ^^ hahs.
tehn walk arund bugis. went iluma and brought a dress. ^^ nice.
then homed.

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watched the devil wears prada. the show is nice. ^^ then after that talk to christine on the phone. then in the end the both of us started crying. :< but felt better after that. but felt better after talking to JD. (: thanks. yeah. and then um.. like that loh. i very lazy post le. hahas

yah. i wanna go do e-learning le. post later. ^^ byebye!





to let go of it, is definitely the best choice and im trying my best right now. ^^

desire ,

hellos.

today. nothing much happen lah. veyr lazy type out. :p

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ytd night went for SSO concert at esplnade. wasnt really nice. maybe cause we didnt know how to appreciate it. :p should have left dring the intermission loh.
kay lah. then took photos. upload later. ^^

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decided not to change class. anw my mom also dont allow so forget it loh. so just stay in 301 as many suggest. :< although reluctant but no choice.

haiz. guess after all, being separated is what we get. i dont knowhow you feel bout it but i guess you dont really care. so why am i caring so much. am i the one who cares and treasure this friendsip after all? maybe or maybe not. after all, secrets will not be shared anymore and as you said theres no much trust between the both of us. right, being able to get into 301 is a good thing but losing a friend who im so close to isnt a great feeling either kay. idk if you are aware of that but if its meant to be left this way then i guess we cant help it either.

sorry bout that. wasnt feeling really good. :< still havent really gotten over that ting lah. thanks to those that cared. ^^

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yipee! going kbox with family tmr! woo! finally can relax. heehee. ^^
cant wait. :p

kay lah. i wanna go watch tv le. byebye! ^^




to me, nothing is the same.

i ♥ 201'09!

hellos.

today was a suckish day alright. went back to school to collect report book.
met with F.A. at park mac to have breakfast. as usual was bitch-ing and laughing like mad there, heehee.

then went to school. did some admin stuffs. then report book.
i was so scared okay. i saw my level position. 19! i was super shock okay. i expected for like 30+ or 40+ lah. but F.A. did well this time round. ^^ well done! hahas.
then time to announce class. me, jaclyn, jochebel, lynette,cong and deb got into 301. dafinah , christine and liyana 302. I DONT WANT!! I WANT GO 302!! :< tonight gonna protest to my mum. haha.
yah.. then liyana cried. i cried and christine cried. :'<
haiz. i dont want separate lah.

to fellow 201 peeps :
hey! today is the last day we are 201. from tmr onwards we are sec 3s! omg. sound so old uh. diff class, diff people. must get use to the surroundings. although we might miss the times we were together as a class, but we all know that the precious memories are always kept in our heart right? hahas. so cheer up because we still have one another by our side and we will forever be 201'09! hahas.
rain or shine, we will be by each otehr side supporting each other right? ^^
and dont forget we have the greatest TCs who treat us very good okay? memories shared will never be forgotten. :>

201'09 is always ♥ ! ^^

heehee.

hahas. i will miss 201 lah. best class ever man. ^^

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um.. yah. results still consider quite good lah.
english- 59 (c5) <- sucks!
chinese - 74 (a2)
maths - 65 (b3)
science - 63 (b4)
geog - 79 (a1)
hist - 73 (a2)
lit - 62 (b4)
d&t - 63 (b4)
art - 62 (b4)
HE - 69 (b3)

class position : 10
level position : 19
L1R4 : 13
L1R5 : 16

results not very good still can go 301. wth lah. sucks lah.
haiz.

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kay lah. i want go bathe le. later going for SSO concert at esplanade. kinda sad. feel like crying. :<
kay lah. byebye! maybe post tmr or something? (:




make two grins where ther was only one grouch before. ^^

love, lile life, is an adventure.

hellos.

today as usual was another boring day. saty at home. watch tv, use comp, sleep and l those stuffs lah. yeah.

um. yah. tmr having band. 1 to 5. :o

then no more le. ( sorry. this is a very short post. no mood. )
byebye.(:




its time to cut loose. c:

collition of emotions ,

hellos.

today had band in the morning. but before that went mac with cong. had breakfast then went school. (:
then band ended early today. suppose to release at 1 but released at 12.05.
so went pizza hut to eat. damn nice. ^^
then actually wanted to go hoem but instead went IMM with fellow band members. alot of people. very lazy list out haha. tehn on the MRT, was bitching. hahas. damn fun. ^^ then went band world. damn creepy there lah. :o then helped christine to carry instrument.
DAMN HEAVY SIA! then now my hand swollen. :< ZZZ.
then walk around and then took train back with christine first. then homed.
tiring day..

tmr no need go back school! ^^ can sleep in le. hahas.
but thursday go band. haiz. very tired sia.

kay lah. i wanna go do my e-learning le. byebye! (;






wish someone was there to tell me what to do. x.x

here we go.

hellos.

2nd post of the day le. few hours has passed since then. but i very bored lah.

so i have only completed chinese e-learning. im seriously in no mood to do. so lets just forget about it. ^^ later then do ba.
so i have been wasting my time on facebook and blogs. (;

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im thinking.. does friendship really exist?
im starting to doubt it.
so many things happen this year and of course, last year too.
first this and now that.
many say forgive and forget. but is it really so easy?
if you wre me, maybe it wouldnt. after all those that she has done, i have had enough of it.
so much for 'we would be friends forever uh."
i wished for it too. but do you think its really possible?
to me, nah.

ever though of how many friends really do stay?
how does it feel to have someone you cheirsh so much to leave so suddenly?
it hurts doesnt it?

firstly, you make new firends.
and then when you get all close and time goes by,
you will find drifting form them cause you found new ones.
its just so simple to tear friendships apart.

however, theres another thing. but RARE. highly impossible. maybe 0.00001%?
LOL.

you meet new friends, get all close and remain close,
and make even more new friends but still remain close to the old ones.
do you think this is possible? perharps?

with friendships coming and going, i wonder where the true ones go.

to me, all my friendships have turned into a fantasy,
although there will still be hiccups but who cares.

fairytale much? x.x

just a random post. but i realized alot of things after all these times.
forgive and forget? IMPOSSIBLE.
to forgive but not forget?
to forget but not to forgive?
not to forget and not to forgive?

idk. lets just see how things progress.

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ohya! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOCHEBEL !
1 year older le! but still very pretty! stay cheerful and smart okay? wish you good luck in everything you do! F.A. is always loved. ^^*

kaykay. realized something?
ytd, 1st nov was lynette's birthday and today 2nd nov is jochebel's birthday. these 2 best friends are just so cute uh? :>

haha. kay. i wanna go take a nap le. very tired. o.o
byebye!



i wish happiness last longer than it did.

mending in progress,

hellos.

so today is another stay home day. have e-learning assignments to complete. will try to choing finish everything by today cause tmr having band. :<

okay. so yeah. as you can see. instead of doing my e-learning assignments, im here blogging and facebook-ing. ^^ haha. dont have the mood to do. and im very hubgry now lah.

okay. i shall be a good kid and do my assignments before my meal comes home. (;

byebye! 2nd post later!

trust in you.

hellos.

so today woke up at 9 plus. went out for breakfast at amk central. after that went shopping! heehee. (; went J8 first then to far east plaza. ^^
brought a new pair of heels. weeeeee! but not i pay money de lah. i broke now. :'(

today is 1st november. the start of a new month. gosh. so sian.
and today is 1st november and its LYNETTE KUOH YAN LING'S brithday!
happy birthday! stay happy as always and be crazy as always. hope F.A. can go same class next year. (: enjoy this day and live it to the fullest. ^^

haha. kay. im having barbeque for dinner tonight! yessa! haha. damn happy. cant wait for it. ^^

okk. i wanna go facebook-ing le. so byebye! :>




life is short. learn to smile more, laugh as though theres no tmr, forgive and forget and most importantly, to live life to its fullest. ^^

suckers.

hellos.

nothing much happen today. just that help my uncle to make a D.I.Y. mask for his halloween party today. we all felt pretty satisfied after doing it. it look pretty nice seriously. (;

okay. so today is another rainy day and my 2nd uncle so good help us go buy mac. haha. enjoyed it alot. ^^

kay lah. i got no mood to post le. due to some idiots.
to whoever you are :
you are just some suckers that are dogs alright. spamming people's blog? think of who are you and do you even have the right to spam or not first alright. when this is MY blog okay?!

kay. sorry. but was pretty angry so yeah.. i dont want to blog le. byebye and night.

shattered ,

hellos.

today. had the stupid workshop again. pretty fun but pretty boring at the same time. went botanic garden today. the weather is super duper uper HOT today! hat it man. suppose to complete 5 stations but we completed 4 stations. enjoyed the 3rd station the most. very funny see people do. cong say this station is meant to embarass people de loh. i totally agree. (;
then after that rain. finally! then had bee hoon and 1 pathetic hotdog for luch today. ^^ was super hungry. then homed.

was tired so i slept awhile. actually didnt intend to sleep but i was in aircon room so cant help it. heehee.

today. was a bad day. evening was raining cats and dogs lah. i was so drenched! ==
maybe going to be sick! Zzz.

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band starting next week. not really looking forward to it lah! i dont want go! holiday still must wake up so early! haiz.

nvm. update tmr. i wanna go eat dinner. i havent eat. my stomach very pain now. byebye and nights! C:




& you made me believe in you, i was just silly.

flawless.

hellos.

today went back to school for the stupid leadership workshop. suppose to have enjoyed it but it sucks. gave me headache until now. ZZZ. did many presentation today. I HATE PRESENTATION ! ==
lunch was okay lah. had fried rice and 1 pathetic fish ball. to me the food was pretty fine but to others abit suckish. maybe cause i very hungry. haha.

after that me and christine kanna chased/stalked by some idiots. ran the distance of a few blocks and then took lift up 8 floor and walk down the stairs and walking back th distance of a few bloks again. all thanks to christine. veyr tired you know. :<

anws, homed. then feel asleep while watching tv then suddenly christine call me. haiz. call me at unwanted time uh. nvm. that always happen.

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um.. yeah. like that loh. and band is resuming next week. happy or sad ? sec3 seniors will be away for bridging and guess se 4s wont be here due to o's ? diediedie. haiz. :(

not feeling really happy today. due to some reasons and i think im falling sick soon. sick better. no need go school. tmr still got leadership training. :o

kay lah. byebye and nights ! ;)



share the joy, double the joy. share the sorrow, half the sorrow. (:

pieces of you.

hellos.

ytd.
went back to school to collect results. (;
was pretty fine lah. haha. quite dissapointed in my chem and history lah. sian.
i failed chem by 1 mark. ==
but okay lah. so far i counted i got 2 A1s ! haha. for geog and chinese. heehee. ^^

then crapped in class. after that went for recess.

had the stupid leadership workshop. it toally sucks alright? so boring lah.
then they provided nasi lemak for lunch. heehee. quite nice lah. but didnt finish. not much appetite. haiz.

tehn wnt hub to meet jiading to pass him the present then we siam. cause dont want be lightbulb there. heehee. xP

went to buy cardigan. then homed.

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today.
woke up at 10 plus. replied sunicia's messsage then met up with her at hub. went to buy her mum's present then walked around and then homed. talk alot. haha. (:

then came home. watch tv and eat mac. heehee. very long never eat le. :B
then use comp loh.

boring day lah.

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haiz. as usual. ALOT of things are happening.
somehow i wished that tmr will never come.
perharps it would be better that way ba.
nothing more to worry about. nothing more to care about.
living and seeing things happening is really a torture.

kay. sorry bout that. i no mood to post le. thinking bout returning to school and things are gonna happen again. the feeling totally sucks.

kay. byebye. c:





sometimes we tend to hold back our tears, so that no one will know how we actually feel.

instincts.

hellos.

today went out with the F.A. although attendance wasnt full. haiz. nvm.
amk hub >> ion orchard >> far east plaza >> bugis >> iluma >> bugis >> amk hub >> home.

had a super long day. was super tired lah. o.o
my leg hurts after a whole day of walking around lah.

anws. brought a dress and shoes for sso concert next fri. pretty looking forward to it. ^^v

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tmr going back to school to check scripts. I VERY SCARED !
what if i fail ? i dont want fail lah. sian. ==

after that still got leadership training. haiz. dont know what we going to do again sia.

kay lah. i lazy post le. byebye! and nights! (;




will tmr really be better ?

flawless.

hellos.

haiz. this morning woke up at 9 plus. Zzz. damn tired lah. plus last night didnt sleep well. I WANT TO SLEEP!

having this freaking headache since this morning. o.o damn giddy now.
kay nvm.

these days. alot of things are happening. be it at home or at school. dont know why also. everything is changing becuase of YOU. idk why but i have this question.
why cant friendships be kept forever without any quarrels at all?
i am sure this applies to many people ba.

ever thought of what would happen to all of us after all those quarrels? perharps we might not be that close anymore or we might never be friends again.
being friends with a new person might cause the relationship between you and your other friends to be sabotaged too. haiz.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING ?!

problems appearing one by one. haiz. obstacles in life? maybe.

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tmr going out with F.A ! so happy. very long never go out le. miss those times. (: going shopping! wee!! ;D

kay lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye! ^^





a smile a day keeps all the unhappiness away ! ^^ smile more kay.

damn it.

hellos.

today just pass by pretty peacefully. or rather for a short period of time lah.

anws, ytd went to j8 to collect jd's b'dae present. ^^ its very nice. haha. hope he will like it lah.
how i wish it was mine. jkjk.

then came home. then damn dulan.
my mum keep saying the present very ugly. the picture very ugly still dare go print like wth lah. its not hers also right. did she even think of how i will feel or not. its still waht im giving me friend right. then because of that i attitude her. like wtf lah. everytime she did anything, i never say anything. she always SO biased. i never even complained. she is always biased towards dajie. no matter what i do, no matter how well i scored for my exam, no matter how sick i am, no matter how many tears i dropped, would she ever know? NO! cause she doesnt even care. but now. I DONT GIVE A DAMN alright?!! since i have always felt i have been an extra and sometimes i got the feeling that im not your child. but no matter what. I DONT CARE ALRIGHT?!!

sorry. im super duper freaking angry lah. >< ytd when she said that i have the urge to cry but no matter what i cant.. :(
haiz.
and my eyes are like super puffy this morning. ZZZ. ==

haiz. nvm. i wanna go sleep le. byebye. its going to 11 le. nights. :D




is it too late ?

addicted.

hellos.

finally everything is over. ^^ damn happy lah. finally can relax le. but next tues go back school check scripts. scared scared. :<
hope will pass ba.

anws, oral was fine. after that went mac for breakfast then me and christine went to buy stuffs. she brought a new bag and i brought something. ^^

then homed. talk to her on the phone then use comp. after that slept awhile. (: very tired. finally can sleep in le lah. (:

oh gosh. band is resuming next tues. :< tiring. then beofre thta must check scripts then got the stupid leadership training. ZZZ.

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anybody would have thought about the topic trust ? as in like really trust. idk. i just got the feeling that i just couldnt trust anybody these days. when people tell me something i will have to think twice before accepting its the turth or not. perharps of the many stuffs that happened. IDK.

kay lah. i very lazy update le. byebye! ^^




i trust my instincts. ^^

family is in a BIG BIG BIG BIG mess. haiz. how? o.o

mess

hellos.

heehee. so happy today. today last paper le! weee! finally the stress period is over le! yay! LOL.
but feeling kinda of sad too. cause 201 going to be separated le. :(
I DONT WANT!
plus i scared my results not good. Zzz. didnt really concentrate for the papers cause wasn feeling really good for the papers due to personal reasons. lotsa stuffs happen. dont really feel like saying lah.

wondering why im blogging today? haha. my mum actually allows! i told her i left with oral tmr then can i use comp then she say can. whoo! damn happy can. heehee.

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kay. today maths paper 2. pretty easy loh. who was that idiot who keep saying very hard de ar? ZZZ. scared the bloody hell out of me. -_-
anws, after that have the subject combination talk. sian lah.
i want take amaths next year!
but then at home nobody teach me loh. who want teach me? ^^
anws then afetr that must finish the NYAA booklet idiot lah.

then at first went to christine house. but then downstairs le then she say her mum want follow then she dont want go. then we ran from her house there to park mac. know how tiring it was?
imagine climbing up the staircase taht seems never ending then running down another staircae that seems never ending. Zzz.
was sweating like siao kay.

then yeah. met jaiding , junhui and derrick at mac + kelly. laugh alot and was pretty fun lah. but christine left soon cause of her mum. dont like her mum sia. ZZz. then we went outside then the boys play soccer and we watch them play loh.
then derrick kick the ball then kena until kelly. damn funny. heng i never. ^^
then they kick the ball keep on going on tp the road.
then me and kelly was like :
K: see the ball go onto the road again.
I: 马路他们买的吗。
K&I: haha.
okay. lol.

then walked to hub. see alot of people sia. damn suay. ZZZ. ==
then send them to mrt station then i actually want go home de. then kelly pull me go shopping. sian. no mood loh.

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okay. idk what to say le.
ohya. know what? i fell down the bus on wed. ZZZ.
it was damn unglam lah. i didnt even know how i fell down loh. ><
so paiseh.

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and i have a queation to ask. what is the true meaning of friendship? idk. anbody knows? i have been thinking bout that question lately. lotsa stuffs have been happyening these days. its really tiring. actually felt like scolding someone on blog de but nvm lah. forgte it loh.
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sorry for the spam. im seriously not in the best of mood now. so if i kinda ignore you, sorry! :<

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im like sick these days. having a damn flu. my nose hurts. and my nose gte stuck all day long. sian lah. difficulty breathing. :o go away lah flu! i dont like you!

and i dropped my phone this morning. again. i think my phone is going to spoil sooner or later lah. sian. then i will kena scolding again. haiz.

kay lah. i wanna go do other stuffs le. byebye! ^^



a smile is all i need.

why?! why?! why?!

hellos.

an eventful week has past. (: wee!
actaully suppose to go sentosa ytd de but didnt go. sadded. but nvm.
cause going to e hub tmr!
christine : must go ah ! if not i kill you. bleah!

anws, exams this week ah.. i can tell you i totally flung home econs. it sucks alright. and the listening compre. cannot really undestand. diediedie. :(

haiz. cannot really rmb waht happen le. heehee. (:

ohya. saw my bill today. it BOMBED. $89.17. whoops. :o
but lucky nvr kenna scolding. heehee

yea. and my inbox is like flooded? but at least got some entertainment lah. very boring leh.

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um.. yeah. christine asked jacob and turned out that he said the wrong thing. ZZZ.
christine say i can stop hating him le. its all a misunderstanding.
but do you think its really so easy to stop hating someone when you have finally mustered up the courage to hate that person and now you realise you dont have to? i can tell you. its not that easy. perharps not for me.

kay lah. serious. im very tired these days. seriously. plus all the stress and all those stuffs. i need a break.

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was doing my art prepartory work just now. im doing on thes are a few of my favourite things. i realise my drawing seriously sucks. ==

okk. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights! ^^




what is the difference between love and hate?
why do i have the urge to cry?

three.

hellos.

sian sia. tmr got school. ZZZ. i seriously kinda hate school these few days. because of many many reasons.

haiz. these few days very tiring. cravin for more sleep everyday. (:

anws, ytd hor. nearly cry. :( idk why also. but at least it really does feel better saying it out. thankies. ^^

ok. jiading's birthday coming le. but idk what to buy for him. maybe cup money with christine. ^^

okay lah. i got nothing more to say le. byebye !



chemistry.

two.

FLY FLY FLY far away.

hellos.

another week has pass and holidays coming soon. (: / :( idk

oh yeah ! 4 papers down le ! finally. but i scraed i dont do well for the papers.
EOY paper are not that easy after all.

anws. eventful week uh. ^^
wow. exams sux. RANDOM. nvm.
kay. idk why but i simply cant sleep deeply during exams. sleep for a while and thought it has been half an hour or so. ZZZ.

anws, met up with jiading and junhui this wed. was pretty crazy. me kelly and christine was like running around and laughing like mad when the 2 of them was like playing soccer ? o.o
then we sat down finally. and me and kelly say its kind of funny to see 2 people playing soccer and the ball fly here fly there when people is eating. HAHA.
then went mac. saw alot of people there hor christine. somebody saw her *ehem* there. muahaha.
then laugh quite alot also. then hub. then homed. ^^

yup. and then the rest of the week was exams practically all the way. ^^ pretty tiring.
and next week got 2 days is exams then the rest is school day. sian sia ! ><

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ohya. my sms for this month comfirm BAO de loh. then i will kenna kp again.
WHO CARES. ^^
yah. and BAO due to calling of people these few days and duration damn long can ?!
and yeah. sms. mostly to jh. pretty fun talking to him. ;D
dont think wrong. friends only.

and hor. idk whats so addictive about you that still makes me have that kind of feelings for you. what the damn prob with me !! i want to gte over you to live a new life but i cant. WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!
many people can see that i havent got over you.
haiz.
i simply find myself so useless.

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someway somehow. i feel all of us are drifting apart. what will happen to us next year ? will we still be so close ? i hope so.
i miss the times we were having so much laughter and fun but now ? i dont think so.

anws,i got nothing to update le lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights ! ^^



time is all i need.

and thats exactly what im going to do.
and i can do it. trust me. (:
I HAVE TO BE STRONG.
heehee. (:

one

i will. (:

hellos.

today will be the last day i post until next week or mabe after exams. guai right ? heehee.

anws , today woke up and went for breakfast at mac and then went J8. played at the arcade.
know what? i realised that playing street basketball at arcade is a good way to relieve stress you know. heehee.
it was ultra fun ok ! and i played it 3 times! heehee.
and i played till round 3 with the score of 203 !
hehe. first time play leh. not bad le loh. ;DD

anws, homed after that. ^^
then did abit of history then bio then maths.
then take a nap.
dinner and then finish english homework.
now. watching tv and using comp. weeeee!!

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anws, to those that cared.
im fine. heehee. really. so dont worry so much ok ? i will be my ususal self tomorrow alright ? or maybe try to. heehee. :P
but seriously a BIG BIG BIG thank you to all of you guys. ♥ you guys lots ! ^^

yeah. wasnt feeling very good because of a bastard. opps. hehee.
but now . its time to concentrate on my studies and must score well !!
heeehee.

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. so byebye and night peeps ! ;D




truth hurts - thats the fact.

tears of lettin go.

i look so weird. ><

hellos.

another week has passed. exams starting the upcoming week. :< ultra stress.

through this week , alot alot alot of things has happened. idk if you all have realised but i just wish for holidays to come faster. perharps this will be the chance to not see you guys and him.
PERHARPS. i want some time alone.
i admit i wasnt feeling really in the best of mood or rather was feeling rather irritated and stressed up and confused over alot of matters.

if thats what you call attitude , so be it. and at the very least she know part of whats going on and you dont. so whats the point of saying me if you dont even know what happened. its of no use alright. you always do this and do that to your own liking. you say you dont like this person then restrict me and her from going to that person then now you like that person then you like suck up to her. whats the point. i seriously dont understand.
to another person (you know who you are)
to tell you the truth , its a matter of time this will happen. life is just but going through obstacles and overcoming them and to await anoher obstacle to come. if we cant even cross this , then im afraid we cant be BOFs anymore. i didnt treat you that way because i feel like it but just that im seriosuly very stress over stuffs that i do not wish to say. the reason why i treat you and others differently is because i thought you would understand and perharps i could tell you some other time. but apparently you hought it in a different point of view. i hav 1 o word which is sorry. i didnt mean it but seriously my emotions are like different and changing almost every second. perharps its just stress. if you think that i pangseh you for the past few days, then im sorry. but have thought about it. is it you who changed or was it me. maybe thats going to be a question left unanswered.

okay. sorry peeps. wasnt feeling really good. because of studies ? him ? other stuffs ? idk. but i know because of that. im having like pms. >< bu seriously im tired.
how i wish for exams to finish soon. IM ULTRA TIRED ! both emotionally and physically alright ?

idk why but i have the urge to cry. perharps is about you or about the incident that i came to knew ytd. anws thanks to those wh tried to like kinda stop me from knowing the truth in order to protect me. (: but if i knew the truth earlier , wouldnt it be better ? or maybe not. idk. perharps i want to cry everything all out and i will be fine.
can i have a shoulder to lean on ? JKJK. (:

ok lah. i very lazy to type all out throughout this whole week. so sorry peeps.

to that idiot.
i was thinking after what christine told me ytd. why was i such a retarded to even cry for you. even if i do, would ou even care or evn know i guess no right. I WANT TO ERASE ALL THE MEMORIES BETWEEN US AND I WILL TREAT IT THAT YOU HAVE NEVER BENN INTO MY LIFE AND YOUR NAME WILL NEVER APPEAR IN MY DICTIONARY ! you asshole. hmph!

heehee. thought it through today. i ahve never felt so stupid before ok.
and ok lah. i cried myself to sleep ytd. (: i wonder when was the last time i cried myself to sleep. and when i woke up , my eyes were kinda puffy. O.O
i still feel like crying how ? :<
do you really have such a great impact on me ? idk.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW !

okok. i very tired of all those scolding and those talking. its been a pretty long post i know. sorry guys. just needed some place to vent it all off.
i wanna go facebook-ing le. heehee. byebye and night peeps !




letting go can be hard. or easy. depending on what you have left behind.
am i thinkin too much thus causing it too hard for me to let go ?

im really letting go.

desire ,

hellos.

tomorrow is the start of a new LONG week.. which means no comp for 1 week ! :(
everyday must study study study. ><

okok. today woke up and went for luch with family at J8. then went walk arouund.
brought mooncakes and then went ntuc brought some stuffs.
homed.
changed and studied bio. then use comp until now but logging off soon le. :(

okok. im like dan hungry and tired now can?
but my mom cooking mee hoon kueh tonight ! heehee.

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. so wait till next sat peeps !
byebye ! :D




holding on or letting go ?

distance ,

this dog above is said to be the world's saddest dog. i feel like just hugging this dog to make it feel better. (: perharps, im someimes like this dog..

hellos.

im back ! heehee.
finally , survived 1 week without comp during the weekdays.
so , i really spent my week studying alright. (:
i finished some of my notes le. HAHA. history actaully plan finish today de but dont understand some of chap 9 so monday go ask mrs chong. ^^
ok. very tired and sick of studying le. :( wish for time to go faster. (:

tues
school as usual. nothing much happened. (:

wed
pe : have to write the supid NYAA booklet. == alot to write sia.
then ok all the way until physics.
physics : never do homework then that mr foo ask us to sit on the floor. almost half the class ok. heehee. ur class very pro. ;D
then had learning journey after school. went with 202 and 204.
wasnt really happy for the first part lah.
i just find that people very kp. you do that to people first then now then you jealous. whats the point lah. and theres not even a thing going on between me and him so you jealous for what. its your own decision and you were the one who asked for it , not him. then now you and your friend kp so much. asshole.

thurs
had home econs practical.
enjoyed cooking. ^^ cooked a SUCCESSFUL DISH for the first time ok. HAHAH.
turned out it was nice ! ;D

fri
english common test. summary. i exceed the word limit by 50 words ! == die.
then recess. walao. all bully me only loh.
and the all refers to KELLY , CHIRSTINE , TIMOTHY , matthew ng , jonathan lau(204) and alot of people which i cant remeber lah. kns. damn 过份 lah. :'(

thats about the week for today.
pretty much of laughing and sometimes emo lah.
for some reasons which idk what. i get emo for sometimes. i also dont know why. :(

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okok. so as you can see. life without comp can be very bored. :(
feel so tempted to use comp lah.

okk. actaully i find that people are changing and that includes almost everybody. not that im critising anybody but its the fact. so has changed for the better some for the worse. idk.

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. ^^ very long never go facebook le. ;DD

andandand im having KFC for dinner ! very long never it le. been craving for it. ^^v




day by day , i starting to find myself hating you more and more. will a day come by that i will hate you so much that theres not even a thread of love ?

chances

hellos.

2nd post of the day. (:

okok. just wanna tell you guys that..
I WONT BE BLOGGING FOR A PERIOD OF TIME. SORRY FOR THE LACK OF POSTS READERS !
due to examination. ;D

so yeah. byebye and nights !
GOOD LUCK FOR EOY !
F.A if can must all go same class ok ? heehees.




i have no more faith in you.

all wrong.

hellos.

woke up at 9 plus due to kelly's morning call. ==
damn tired lah.

then meet up with her and christine at hub then went to eat then to ntuc to buy ingredients. actaully is suppose to pei them go but then since i there i just buy loh. so ex can. $10++ leh. not inclusive of cheese and grapes loh. :(

then walk around awhile then homed. (:
tired.

suppose to read newspaper but i fell asleep halfway. heehees.
then wake up eat dinne then use comp. ;D

actuaally not suppose to use de. but my mum say today last day. tomorrow cannot use le. :( how am i going to survive without comp man. ><

okok. i wanna go finish my rich task and then homework le. byebye and nights ! ^^


smile is the remedy to everything.
a smile a day , keeps all the grumpies AWAY ! ;DD

i want everything she got.

hellos.

summarise :
home >> hub >> grandma house >> toa payoh hub >> homed.
;D

short but tiring day today. (:
ohya. went toa payoh hub to wait for bus just now and saw 2 small korean girls in front of me and my sis. then the younger girl put her leg up and her elder sis told her not to do so. like very rude like that ma. they are so courteous and polite lah. (: not like won jun. HAHAHA. they very pretty also. ;D

then reached home at around 3 plus. studied all they way until now. super tired lah. having a fraking headache now. ><

anws, saw cong's blog. ==
I DONT HAVE A HUSBAND OK ?! he not mine ! PURELY frieds. HAHAHA.

okok. i wanna go eat eat le. damn hungry. byebye ! ^^




what yours , will be yours. (:

you suck. (:

hellos.

2nd post of the day. its currently 10.51pm already.
was doing rich task. guai right ? HAHA. finished almost everything le. ^^
pro right? HEEHEES !

okok. i wanna go sleep le ! byebye and night ! ;D
wish exams hurry up over ! i want my freedom back !

superficial

hellos.

finally , afetr a week of school , a day to sleep in. (:
been aticipating this day for a very long time. ^^ slept till 12 plus then wake up. really becoming pig le.
anws, was damn irrated by my bro this morning. everything also cry cry cry. kpkb only. asshole. scolded him and then he cry again. ><
then went downstairs fro lunch.
came home and did homework and revision.

walao. my mum say
with effect from ytd , everyday afetr school must straight away come back and do homework. until 7-8pm then can rest. then continue. then cannot use comp on weekdays. weekends only 2h. then dont know still got what shit lah.
like wth lah. force us study also no use. my results not bad le leh. ==

anws, so no choice. just now did my homework as well as notes for EOY. from 3 plus do until 5 plus. damn tired can.

ohya. i havent even started doing my rich task and i remember that next wed i got rich task lesson. going to choing everything later. dont feel like doing leh. ZZZ.

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing and then do rich task le. so byebye and night ! ^^




love , like life , is an adventure. ;D

dreams.

hellos.

school was fine. but was damn sleepy lah. ==
slept for about 15 - 20 mins during common test. (:
then geog nearly fall alseep. but english seems to past very fast. (: like super.

then went badn room. was then informed sectionals canceled. then stay around while thne went hub. walk walk then went to wait for bus. saw mrs low there.^^ very long time since i last saw her. MISS HER LESSONS. haha. had a talk with her on the bus. and then she alight first.

homed. saw a big big pile of smoke and then it turn out it was my grandmother burning incense paper. == helped her and the smoke was damn thick lah. my eyes super watery lah. then came home and use comp. HAHA.

later going take a nap. damn tired. :O
didnt have enough sleep the past few days. and school was tiring too.

ohya. heard that 111 got 21 phones kenna confiscated cause they use at relief room. 21 PHONES LEH. ><

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye ! ^^v
p.s christine arh. i REALLY SERIOUSLY never see anything yesterday ! ><






to be alive means to not know. ;DD

S.M.I.L.E

hellos.

today. school was fine. pretty boring lah. actually.
anws after school liyana say vice-chairman also need go for the leadership training but after that found out no need. == then edwyn went for sectionals and then pangseh me. then i alone wadering around the school like a wandering ghost lah. -_-
then call kelly. then after awhile went canteen lucky , jonathan and uvarjh was there. so they accompanied me while i talk with kelly. then christine and edwyn came to join us. (: then things happen. ZZZ. dont feel like elaborating.

so took 269 home with christine. was talking about some stuffs and then laughing about the phots yesterday . HAHAHA. damn funny. (:

then homed. was damn tired lah. came back actually wante to use comp. but my sis use first so i slept. HAHAH. until now then wake up. (:

okok. i wanna go facebook-ing le . ^^ byebye and nights !




i wished for a wish and my wish came true. (: