suckers.

hellos.

nothing much happen today. just that help my uncle to make a D.I.Y. mask for his halloween party today. we all felt pretty satisfied after doing it. it look pretty nice seriously. (;

okay. so today is another rainy day and my 2nd uncle so good help us go buy mac. haha. enjoyed it alot. ^^

kay lah. i got no mood to post le. due to some idiots.
to whoever you are :
you are just some suckers that are dogs alright. spamming people's blog? think of who are you and do you even have the right to spam or not first alright. when this is MY blog okay?!

kay. sorry. but was pretty angry so yeah.. i dont want to blog le. byebye and night.

shattered ,

hellos.

today. had the stupid workshop again. pretty fun but pretty boring at the same time. went botanic garden today. the weather is super duper uper HOT today! hat it man. suppose to complete 5 stations but we completed 4 stations. enjoyed the 3rd station the most. very funny see people do. cong say this station is meant to embarass people de loh. i totally agree. (;
then after that rain. finally! then had bee hoon and 1 pathetic hotdog for luch today. ^^ was super hungry. then homed.

was tired so i slept awhile. actually didnt intend to sleep but i was in aircon room so cant help it. heehee.

today. was a bad day. evening was raining cats and dogs lah. i was so drenched! ==
maybe going to be sick! Zzz.

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band starting next week. not really looking forward to it lah! i dont want go! holiday still must wake up so early! haiz.

nvm. update tmr. i wanna go eat dinner. i havent eat. my stomach very pain now. byebye and nights! C:




& you made me believe in you, i was just silly.

flawless.

hellos.

today went back to school for the stupid leadership workshop. suppose to have enjoyed it but it sucks. gave me headache until now. ZZZ. did many presentation today. I HATE PRESENTATION ! ==
lunch was okay lah. had fried rice and 1 pathetic fish ball. to me the food was pretty fine but to others abit suckish. maybe cause i very hungry. haha.

after that me and christine kanna chased/stalked by some idiots. ran the distance of a few blocks and then took lift up 8 floor and walk down the stairs and walking back th distance of a few bloks again. all thanks to christine. veyr tired you know. :<

anws, homed. then feel asleep while watching tv then suddenly christine call me. haiz. call me at unwanted time uh. nvm. that always happen.

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um.. yeah. like that loh. and band is resuming next week. happy or sad ? sec3 seniors will be away for bridging and guess se 4s wont be here due to o's ? diediedie. haiz. :(

not feeling really happy today. due to some reasons and i think im falling sick soon. sick better. no need go school. tmr still got leadership training. :o

kay lah. byebye and nights ! ;)



share the joy, double the joy. share the sorrow, half the sorrow. (:

pieces of you.

hellos.

ytd.
went back to school to collect results. (;
was pretty fine lah. haha. quite dissapointed in my chem and history lah. sian.
i failed chem by 1 mark. ==
but okay lah. so far i counted i got 2 A1s ! haha. for geog and chinese. heehee. ^^

then crapped in class. after that went for recess.

had the stupid leadership workshop. it toally sucks alright? so boring lah.
then they provided nasi lemak for lunch. heehee. quite nice lah. but didnt finish. not much appetite. haiz.

tehn wnt hub to meet jiading to pass him the present then we siam. cause dont want be lightbulb there. heehee. xP

went to buy cardigan. then homed.

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today.
woke up at 10 plus. replied sunicia's messsage then met up with her at hub. went to buy her mum's present then walked around and then homed. talk alot. haha. (:

then came home. watch tv and eat mac. heehee. very long never eat le. :B
then use comp loh.

boring day lah.

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haiz. as usual. ALOT of things are happening.
somehow i wished that tmr will never come.
perharps it would be better that way ba.
nothing more to worry about. nothing more to care about.
living and seeing things happening is really a torture.

kay. sorry bout that. i no mood to post le. thinking bout returning to school and things are gonna happen again. the feeling totally sucks.

kay. byebye. c:





sometimes we tend to hold back our tears, so that no one will know how we actually feel.

instincts.

hellos.

today went out with the F.A. although attendance wasnt full. haiz. nvm.
amk hub >> ion orchard >> far east plaza >> bugis >> iluma >> bugis >> amk hub >> home.

had a super long day. was super tired lah. o.o
my leg hurts after a whole day of walking around lah.

anws. brought a dress and shoes for sso concert next fri. pretty looking forward to it. ^^v

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tmr going back to school to check scripts. I VERY SCARED !
what if i fail ? i dont want fail lah. sian. ==

after that still got leadership training. haiz. dont know what we going to do again sia.

kay lah. i lazy post le. byebye! and nights! (;




will tmr really be better ?

flawless.

hellos.

haiz. this morning woke up at 9 plus. Zzz. damn tired lah. plus last night didnt sleep well. I WANT TO SLEEP!

having this freaking headache since this morning. o.o damn giddy now.
kay nvm.

these days. alot of things are happening. be it at home or at school. dont know why also. everything is changing becuase of YOU. idk why but i have this question.
why cant friendships be kept forever without any quarrels at all?
i am sure this applies to many people ba.

ever thought of what would happen to all of us after all those quarrels? perharps we might not be that close anymore or we might never be friends again.
being friends with a new person might cause the relationship between you and your other friends to be sabotaged too. haiz.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING ?!

problems appearing one by one. haiz. obstacles in life? maybe.

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tmr going out with F.A ! so happy. very long never go out le. miss those times. (: going shopping! wee!! ;D

kay lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye! ^^





a smile a day keeps all the unhappiness away ! ^^ smile more kay.

damn it.

hellos.

today just pass by pretty peacefully. or rather for a short period of time lah.

anws, ytd went to j8 to collect jd's b'dae present. ^^ its very nice. haha. hope he will like it lah.
how i wish it was mine. jkjk.

then came home. then damn dulan.
my mum keep saying the present very ugly. the picture very ugly still dare go print like wth lah. its not hers also right. did she even think of how i will feel or not. its still waht im giving me friend right. then because of that i attitude her. like wtf lah. everytime she did anything, i never say anything. she always SO biased. i never even complained. she is always biased towards dajie. no matter what i do, no matter how well i scored for my exam, no matter how sick i am, no matter how many tears i dropped, would she ever know? NO! cause she doesnt even care. but now. I DONT GIVE A DAMN alright?!! since i have always felt i have been an extra and sometimes i got the feeling that im not your child. but no matter what. I DONT CARE ALRIGHT?!!

sorry. im super duper freaking angry lah. >< ytd when she said that i have the urge to cry but no matter what i cant.. :(
haiz.
and my eyes are like super puffy this morning. ZZZ. ==

haiz. nvm. i wanna go sleep le. byebye. its going to 11 le. nights. :D




is it too late ?

addicted.

hellos.

finally everything is over. ^^ damn happy lah. finally can relax le. but next tues go back school check scripts. scared scared. :<
hope will pass ba.

anws, oral was fine. after that went mac for breakfast then me and christine went to buy stuffs. she brought a new bag and i brought something. ^^

then homed. talk to her on the phone then use comp. after that slept awhile. (: very tired. finally can sleep in le lah. (:

oh gosh. band is resuming next tues. :< tiring. then beofre thta must check scripts then got the stupid leadership training. ZZZ.

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anybody would have thought about the topic trust ? as in like really trust. idk. i just got the feeling that i just couldnt trust anybody these days. when people tell me something i will have to think twice before accepting its the turth or not. perharps of the many stuffs that happened. IDK.

kay lah. i very lazy update le. byebye! ^^




i trust my instincts. ^^

family is in a BIG BIG BIG BIG mess. haiz. how? o.o

mess

hellos.

heehee. so happy today. today last paper le! weee! finally the stress period is over le! yay! LOL.
but feeling kinda of sad too. cause 201 going to be separated le. :(
I DONT WANT!
plus i scared my results not good. Zzz. didnt really concentrate for the papers cause wasn feeling really good for the papers due to personal reasons. lotsa stuffs happen. dont really feel like saying lah.

wondering why im blogging today? haha. my mum actually allows! i told her i left with oral tmr then can i use comp then she say can. whoo! damn happy can. heehee.

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kay. today maths paper 2. pretty easy loh. who was that idiot who keep saying very hard de ar? ZZZ. scared the bloody hell out of me. -_-
anws, after that have the subject combination talk. sian lah.
i want take amaths next year!
but then at home nobody teach me loh. who want teach me? ^^
anws then afetr that must finish the NYAA booklet idiot lah.

then at first went to christine house. but then downstairs le then she say her mum want follow then she dont want go. then we ran from her house there to park mac. know how tiring it was?
imagine climbing up the staircase taht seems never ending then running down another staircae that seems never ending. Zzz.
was sweating like siao kay.

then yeah. met jaiding , junhui and derrick at mac + kelly. laugh alot and was pretty fun lah. but christine left soon cause of her mum. dont like her mum sia. ZZz. then we went outside then the boys play soccer and we watch them play loh.
then derrick kick the ball then kena until kelly. damn funny. heng i never. ^^
then they kick the ball keep on going on tp the road.
then me and kelly was like :
K: see the ball go onto the road again.
I: 马路他们买的吗。
K&I: haha.
okay. lol.

then walked to hub. see alot of people sia. damn suay. ZZZ. ==
then send them to mrt station then i actually want go home de. then kelly pull me go shopping. sian. no mood loh.

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okay. idk what to say le.
ohya. know what? i fell down the bus on wed. ZZZ.
it was damn unglam lah. i didnt even know how i fell down loh. ><
so paiseh.

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and i have a queation to ask. what is the true meaning of friendship? idk. anbody knows? i have been thinking bout that question lately. lotsa stuffs have been happyening these days. its really tiring. actually felt like scolding someone on blog de but nvm lah. forgte it loh.
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sorry for the spam. im seriously not in the best of mood now. so if i kinda ignore you, sorry! :<

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im like sick these days. having a damn flu. my nose hurts. and my nose gte stuck all day long. sian lah. difficulty breathing. :o go away lah flu! i dont like you!

and i dropped my phone this morning. again. i think my phone is going to spoil sooner or later lah. sian. then i will kena scolding again. haiz.

kay lah. i wanna go do other stuffs le. byebye! ^^



a smile is all i need.

why?! why?! why?!

hellos.

an eventful week has past. (: wee!
actaully suppose to go sentosa ytd de but didnt go. sadded. but nvm.
cause going to e hub tmr!
christine : must go ah ! if not i kill you. bleah!

anws, exams this week ah.. i can tell you i totally flung home econs. it sucks alright. and the listening compre. cannot really undestand. diediedie. :(

haiz. cannot really rmb waht happen le. heehee. (:

ohya. saw my bill today. it BOMBED. $89.17. whoops. :o
but lucky nvr kenna scolding. heehee

yea. and my inbox is like flooded? but at least got some entertainment lah. very boring leh.

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um.. yeah. christine asked jacob and turned out that he said the wrong thing. ZZZ.
christine say i can stop hating him le. its all a misunderstanding.
but do you think its really so easy to stop hating someone when you have finally mustered up the courage to hate that person and now you realise you dont have to? i can tell you. its not that easy. perharps not for me.

kay lah. serious. im very tired these days. seriously. plus all the stress and all those stuffs. i need a break.

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was doing my art prepartory work just now. im doing on thes are a few of my favourite things. i realise my drawing seriously sucks. ==

okk. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights! ^^




what is the difference between love and hate?
why do i have the urge to cry?

three.

hellos.

sian sia. tmr got school. ZZZ. i seriously kinda hate school these few days. because of many many reasons.

haiz. these few days very tiring. cravin for more sleep everyday. (:

anws, ytd hor. nearly cry. :( idk why also. but at least it really does feel better saying it out. thankies. ^^

ok. jiading's birthday coming le. but idk what to buy for him. maybe cup money with christine. ^^

okay lah. i got nothing more to say le. byebye !



chemistry.

two.

FLY FLY FLY far away.

hellos.

another week has pass and holidays coming soon. (: / :( idk

oh yeah ! 4 papers down le ! finally. but i scraed i dont do well for the papers.
EOY paper are not that easy after all.

anws. eventful week uh. ^^
wow. exams sux. RANDOM. nvm.
kay. idk why but i simply cant sleep deeply during exams. sleep for a while and thought it has been half an hour or so. ZZZ.

anws, met up with jiading and junhui this wed. was pretty crazy. me kelly and christine was like running around and laughing like mad when the 2 of them was like playing soccer ? o.o
then we sat down finally. and me and kelly say its kind of funny to see 2 people playing soccer and the ball fly here fly there when people is eating. HAHA.
then went mac. saw alot of people there hor christine. somebody saw her *ehem* there. muahaha.
then laugh quite alot also. then hub. then homed. ^^

yup. and then the rest of the week was exams practically all the way. ^^ pretty tiring.
and next week got 2 days is exams then the rest is school day. sian sia ! ><

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ohya. my sms for this month comfirm BAO de loh. then i will kenna kp again.
WHO CARES. ^^
yah. and BAO due to calling of people these few days and duration damn long can ?!
and yeah. sms. mostly to jh. pretty fun talking to him. ;D
dont think wrong. friends only.

and hor. idk whats so addictive about you that still makes me have that kind of feelings for you. what the damn prob with me !! i want to gte over you to live a new life but i cant. WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!
many people can see that i havent got over you.
haiz.
i simply find myself so useless.

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someway somehow. i feel all of us are drifting apart. what will happen to us next year ? will we still be so close ? i hope so.
i miss the times we were having so much laughter and fun but now ? i dont think so.

anws,i got nothing to update le lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. byebye and nights ! ^^



time is all i need.

and thats exactly what im going to do.
and i can do it. trust me. (:
I HAVE TO BE STRONG.
heehee. (:

one

i will. (:

hellos.

today will be the last day i post until next week or mabe after exams. guai right ? heehee.

anws , today woke up and went for breakfast at mac and then went J8. played at the arcade.
know what? i realised that playing street basketball at arcade is a good way to relieve stress you know. heehee.
it was ultra fun ok ! and i played it 3 times! heehee.
and i played till round 3 with the score of 203 !
hehe. first time play leh. not bad le loh. ;DD

anws, homed after that. ^^
then did abit of history then bio then maths.
then take a nap.
dinner and then finish english homework.
now. watching tv and using comp. weeeee!!

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anws, to those that cared.
im fine. heehee. really. so dont worry so much ok ? i will be my ususal self tomorrow alright ? or maybe try to. heehee. :P
but seriously a BIG BIG BIG thank you to all of you guys. ♥ you guys lots ! ^^

yeah. wasnt feeling very good because of a bastard. opps. hehee.
but now . its time to concentrate on my studies and must score well !!
heeehee.

ok lah. i wanna go facebook-ing le. so byebye and night peeps ! ;D




truth hurts - thats the fact.

tears of lettin go.

i look so weird. ><

hellos.

another week has passed. exams starting the upcoming week. :< ultra stress.

through this week , alot alot alot of things has happened. idk if you all have realised but i just wish for holidays to come faster. perharps this will be the chance to not see you guys and him.
PERHARPS. i want some time alone.
i admit i wasnt feeling really in the best of mood or rather was feeling rather irritated and stressed up and confused over alot of matters.

if thats what you call attitude , so be it. and at the very least she know part of whats going on and you dont. so whats the point of saying me if you dont even know what happened. its of no use alright. you always do this and do that to your own liking. you say you dont like this person then restrict me and her from going to that person then now you like that person then you like suck up to her. whats the point. i seriously dont understand.
to another person (you know who you are)
to tell you the truth , its a matter of time this will happen. life is just but going through obstacles and overcoming them and to await anoher obstacle to come. if we cant even cross this , then im afraid we cant be BOFs anymore. i didnt treat you that way because i feel like it but just that im seriosuly very stress over stuffs that i do not wish to say. the reason why i treat you and others differently is because i thought you would understand and perharps i could tell you some other time. but apparently you hought it in a different point of view. i hav 1 o word which is sorry. i didnt mean it but seriously my emotions are like different and changing almost every second. perharps its just stress. if you think that i pangseh you for the past few days, then im sorry. but have thought about it. is it you who changed or was it me. maybe thats going to be a question left unanswered.

okay. sorry peeps. wasnt feeling really good. because of studies ? him ? other stuffs ? idk. but i know because of that. im having like pms. >< bu seriously im tired.
how i wish for exams to finish soon. IM ULTRA TIRED ! both emotionally and physically alright ?

idk why but i have the urge to cry. perharps is about you or about the incident that i came to knew ytd. anws thanks to those wh tried to like kinda stop me from knowing the truth in order to protect me. (: but if i knew the truth earlier , wouldnt it be better ? or maybe not. idk. perharps i want to cry everything all out and i will be fine.
can i have a shoulder to lean on ? JKJK. (:

ok lah. i very lazy to type all out throughout this whole week. so sorry peeps.

to that idiot.
i was thinking after what christine told me ytd. why was i such a retarded to even cry for you. even if i do, would ou even care or evn know i guess no right. I WANT TO ERASE ALL THE MEMORIES BETWEEN US AND I WILL TREAT IT THAT YOU HAVE NEVER BENN INTO MY LIFE AND YOUR NAME WILL NEVER APPEAR IN MY DICTIONARY ! you asshole. hmph!

heehee. thought it through today. i ahve never felt so stupid before ok.
and ok lah. i cried myself to sleep ytd. (: i wonder when was the last time i cried myself to sleep. and when i woke up , my eyes were kinda puffy. O.O
i still feel like crying how ? :<
do you really have such a great impact on me ? idk.
GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW !

okok. i very tired of all those scolding and those talking. its been a pretty long post i know. sorry guys. just needed some place to vent it all off.
i wanna go facebook-ing le. heehee. byebye and night peeps !




letting go can be hard. or easy. depending on what you have left behind.
am i thinkin too much thus causing it too hard for me to let go ?

im really letting go.