forever and always.

had a fun morning at gardens by the bay with my family today! ^^ 

though its just the 4 of us, we really had a fun fun day especially when my grandma rarely wants to go out with us. we didnt go to the flower dome and cloud forest even though my grandma really wanted to see the flowers there. the queue was mad long and we said we would visit it once the hype period is over. :) 

we went to the OCBC skywalk which is about 6-7 stories high? it was damn scary, partially because i have a phobia for heights. /: my mum was the funny one. paid $5 for the entrance ticket and the moment she stepped out of the lift, she got jelly and took the lift down again HAHAHA 

well, im proud to be a singaporean! not many countries have gardens by the bay, the singapore flyer or the marina bay sands like singapore! and i once read a post on FB, written by a foreigner, living in his own country and praising singapore and asking singaporeans to be happy with what they have, which is pretty true to certain extend. its funny how a foreigner is the one asking us to treasure what we have when we dont even treasure it huh?
anyway, some singaporeans are really sweet. went jogging at bishan park at 8 + just now and a lady offered me a drink when she saw how tired i was. was really touched by that :')

my awesome buddies in NYP! glad to have them around. :)

went to old airport road market to have dinner with them yesterday! main highlight was the beancurd there! we bought 15 bowls of it! HAHAHA. 

miss them so much after graduating from secondary school! best friends in different schools :) 

NYP, TP, SP. love these guys. 

went ice skating with them on 14 june during the holidays! totally had a awesome time. i fell down and they laugh at me before coming to help me up. ._. well, these are what friends are for HAHAH 

hope to meet up with them again soon! ^^

this boy, has the ability to make me smile faster than anyone can snap their fingers. :)

holding hands is probably one of my favourite things in a relationship. it gives me assurance about me and you. it makes me feel protected when im with you. its such a small gesture but holding hands symbolizes that im comfortable around you and all i want to do is be with you. its like the most intimate thing without too much PDA. i just find it beautiful that when couples hold hands, they never want to let go. to me, when i hold your hand, all my fears and insecurities disappear and only happiness follows. :) this time, i wont let you go again. i love you. <3

look at this cutie pie! hahaha its actually a stray cat which wanders around my block. he always come to my house, like 5 times a day, for his meal and play around with us. hes really very adorable. <3 

a few days ago, he refused to eat and idk why. :( was pretty worried. but i realize that it was jut because he got sick of the wet wet food and prefer the dry food now! happy to see that hes eating well! ^^

i really love making people happy, smile or laugh. it feels good to know that i was able to better or brighten someone else's day. i think being someone else's source of happiness or laughter is the best feeling ever. i love seeing the smiles on their faces and i love knowing that i was the one who helped to put it there. its not really the idea of self-satisfaction but its more of having the knowledge that i was able to give someone else joy. thats what satisfies me. 

how do you like my leopard print nails? ^^ 

pretty satisfied with the outcome! first time trying, considered not bad! heehee. 

thanks for being so sweet to me :') 

in case youre wondering, this is not my boyf. this is someone who is super nice to me besides my boyf, who is always there for me when i needed a listening ear. 

thank you for everything. 

SORRY FOR THE SUPER LONG POST. :) GOODNIGHT AND BYEBYE. 

reminisce.

once again, its the 22nd!

many things has happened lately. how i wish we can go back to how it was in the past. its like everything isnt the same anymore. firstly, we are in different polys and our schedule for everyday is different. its so hard to balance everything out. during the days when youre free, i have projects to finish. i hope that you can be more understanding that i have 3 major projects that i have to complete before school reopen & i have been going back to school for the whole of this week and im really tired. i know you have been very understanding alr but im sorry baby. give me 3 weeks. by then, i would have completed the projects and would have more time for you.

nowadays, we meet up for like less than 2 hours each day. that feeling really sucks yknow? /: sometimes, i do wonder where this relationship is going and whether is this the best for us. 

after 19 months of being together, im pretty much drained out from having to face your family and all. how long more can we go? i really dont know. theres too much uncertainty in this relationship.

i know i shouldnt be saying all these now but idk, these are what i have to tell you this month. 

all in all, im thankful that you have stayed by my side for the past 19 months and tried to put a smile on my face everyday. im sorry that you have to put up with my not-so-good temper and all. /: for that, im feeling very guilty. 

i love you. <3

these are my loots for the month of june! /: too much huh? 7 bottoms & 7 tops. oops. 

i may have left out some that i dont remember buying as well. HAHAH i really need to stop shopping! 

but do you see the polka dot highwaist shorts? it used to be a skirt that i bought last year & i wore it once only. soooo, i got it transformed into a shorts? its really damn damn nice! love it! <3

and i think im addicted to playing pool alr. :x how how how?

OKAY BYE.

coincidence much?

been going back to school for the whole of this week for projects. /: no wonder its called project week. LOL. efforts did pay off! finished statistics report in just 2 sessions! huge sense of accomplishment heehee ^^

2 weeks pass by so quickly! holidays ending next week alr. awww, its back to school again. but well, come to think of it, its good to be back in school so that my mind wont wander off somewhere else again. 

oh, and can you believe the world is so so small? met jiading coincidentally at amk pool yesterday while i was with my poly friends and he was with his friends. turned out, his friend is my primary school friend. like wts? HAHAHA too much of a coincidence!? 

 this group of students from hwachong JC was in NYP the other day raising funds for a charity. so, my friends and i took it for fun and doing our part for the society! :)

went to Far East Plaza to get a top that i have been eyeing for a very long time and finally got it! heehee <3 while i was on my way home, a lady approached me and asked me to be their model. i was like 'whuttttt?' totally troll-ed. biggest joke of the year. should i go for the interview? /:

19 months tomorrow.

OKAY BYE.

midnight post.

i finally understand what true love meant. love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.

its 12.20am now.

just a random post for you. goodnight all. sleep sweet. :)

something wrong with me?

recently, i feel that my health is not as good any more :( its like im getting so paranoid over little issues. was it because my grandfather had several diseases before he passed away and that im afraid i would get all those diseases? :( perhaps im just too paranoid. i hope im just too paranoid. 

SICK SOON.

fatty, i miss you :( 

how can you just leave me in singapore like this? :( suddenly feel so weird without you by my side. without a single text or call or fb message. do you know how worried i am? you say you will message me one loh! you liar. :( i dont want friend you alr la. hmph. falling sick soon alr la. coming back or not? :( 

not feeling very well ever since i came back from chalet. probably due to lack of sleep. /: losing my voice soon i think. sore throat and having problems trying to project my voice. nooooooooooo. & i have been having rashes like thingy on my body. it kinda started off on my thighs and suddenly appeared on my hands and back. my ahma say its cause of weather too hot. really? *worried* 

JUNE, PASS FASTER. I DONT LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE SO NOT NICE TO ME. :( 

suddenly miss school so much. :( missing my polymates. 

OKAY BYEBYE.

what am i to you?

what is this? suddenly telling me that youre leaving SG today and going back to malaysia with your cousin? okaycan. how did you think i felt? yknow im totally drained out from the chalet last night, not from playing but taking care of people. yknow how upset i am over my phone. yknow how much i need you and i miss you. just suddenly leaving me a phone call saying that youre leaving today. what do you expect me to say?

just have a safe trip. text me when youre back. i love you. 

BITCH PLEASE.

you seriously want to test my patience? everything i say during projects, you will disagree. okay loh, i keep quiet. then you say i never contribute. wtf you want? i just want to complete this project as soon as possible. today's session shouldnt have been so tiring if you had cooperated with us. you were late for one hour. & you didnt even apologize. okay can. we did the front part & asked you and the other friend to do abit of the rest & you go 'wlao, you all also never do anything sia' -.- slap yourself seriously. we change the industry that you chose, you not happy is it? we had reasons to change. piss the fuck out of me. 

you should be glad that i still came today despite the fact that i just came back from batam yesterday and is so tired. just my luck to be in the same group as you. -.- i was nice enough not to show it in your face. youre a boy, for goodness sake. stop acting like a girl. 

sorry /: i had to rant. seriously so damn irritating. 4hours of projectwork and only one page of report was done. can you believe it? 

i had never been so pissed off by someone that it triggered all the sad memories that i didnt want to be reminded of. my boyf's mum telling me off in public, the 5 days of my grandfather's funeral. :( it was so hard having to hold it all in. but who would know how i feel? i have good friends and boyfriend to lend me a listening ear but, do they really understand? :(

okay bye. 

SHORT GETAWAY TO BATAM

IM BACK! ^^

well this 3D2N at batam wasnt too bad, even though it wasnt what i had expected. there are limited number of activities there and yeah, it gets kinda of boring. & the shopping centre there, i got nothing to say. their fashion sense seriously CMI. -.- bought nothing but food back! HAHAHA

took ferry there & because we were slightly late for the boarding of the ferry at SG, our names were called out through the PA system. that was so embarrassing. well, once in a lifetime experience. but i never want to experience taking the ferry again. /: got seasick and nearly became a 'merlion' on the ferry. (if you know what i mean) always had this problem with motion sickness. /:

overall, this trip is still not too bad! OH! WENT FOR MASSAGE TOO. $13 FOR A FULL BODY MASSAGE FOR AN HOUR. CHEAP LIKE MAD. & VERY COMFY TOO! HEEHEE. 

come back only, need choing homework & projects. sad life. :( ice skating this thursday! cant wait! heehee <3

OKAY BYEBYE. 

TERM BREAK!

hey baby, im leaving for batam tomorrow alr! :( you know how much i dont want to leave you. 

i rather stay in singapore to spend more time with you & go for camp impact. :( but i cant. im so sorry. 

3 days. i will be gone for 3 days but i will be back soon! dont worry about me! i will take care of myself! 

you must take care of yourself okay! :) dont let me worry! i will miss you!

dont anyhow go seduce another girl okay! HAHAHA i love you baby! 

so here comes the term break! woohoo! HAPPY GIRL HAHAH WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS DAY. 

i really enjoyed my 2 months in NYP! im 100% positive that i didnt make the wrong choice! heehee. 

haiz, but it turns out that those 2 weeks are weeks to choing project. -.- im like going back to school so many many days for different projects. sucksssssssss. 

oh! got back some of the tests results & some were pretty disappointing. :( but stats is gooddddddddd HAHAHA AT LEAST FOR NOW. 

okay byebye. 

SHIT YOU, POA.

awwww poa test tomorrow :( shucks. hope i can pass!

term break is coming soon! woohoo! ^^ so drained from the past few weeks of school. been super busy with projects, assignments and tests! x.x can die. seriously. well, just one more week and i can enjoy my 2 weeks of holiday! (actually not really, gonna be busy with project during the 2nd week of holiday. FML) im sure it will all be paid off! i want to do well for my sem one & get good GPA!

i miss my secondary school friends and juniors so much :( secondary school life is still the best. 

OKAY. TIME TO GET BACK TO POA. :( BYEBYE.  

NO DOOMSDAY IN 2012.

im pretty sure that you guys have heard about the world ending on 21 december 2012? 

im not sure how true that is but im afraid of whatever that is coming. idk if its a good thing or a bad thing that will happen on that day, thats what im afraid of. idk if i will be able to live till 22 december 2012. idk how much more time i have with my family, boyfriend & friends. im afraid of the future.

this doomsday thingy has been spreading like wildfire on the internet since like what? 2008? its used to sound pretty real & the movie '2012' did pretty much 'help' by making people more afraid. seriously, this doomsday thingy is making children, adults and even elderly scared. can you imagine the impact on everyone? globally? this is one thing that we arent sure if its going to happen but its creating so much fear in everyone. 

true, im scared. i took the effort to go & google it (okay, say that i scared to die or whatever) but it says there that even NASA SAID THAT THE WORLD WONT END IN 2012. ITS JUST SOME PROPAGANDA BY DOOMSAYERS. there are many other websites that explains how this myth came along together with other supposed to happen doomsday. think about it, the earth has been around perfectly fine for 4 billion years so why would it suddenly end just because of a mayan calender coming to an end? by the way, that mayan thingy is supposed to be the one that started this doomsday. their calender that counts like 5000 plus years each time, will end on yes, 21 december 2012. thus they believe that the world will end. but, scientists has proven that this calender is just like our calender that ends on 31 december and continues on 1 jan. so yeah. like seriously. i hate how these people spread things that are not true on the net and start creating fear in people all over the world. (i have nothing against the mayans or whoever stated, im just stating a fact)

perhaps, this is not true. perhaps, the world is going to end afterall. :( but, i believe it wont. people say when you believe in something, it will happen. im living in  the hope that i will still wake up to a beautiful day on 22 december 2012.  so guys, have faith. :) because i believe it wont end in 21 december 2012. 

okay, random post. BYEBYE.