its been a long journey.

HAPPY 17TH MONTHSARY SWEETHEART! ^^ 

so coincidentally, april is the month that you turn 17 & its also our 17th monthsary! heehee okay, no link.

soooooooooo, poly life has started & its the 2nd week tomorrow alr! please work hard okay? i dont want you to fail any modules in year one! but dont stress yourself out too! :) i know you can do it. <3

remember the first day we first started talking to each other? `cause thats what started you and i. even till today, i can still remember that day clearly. that day has officially become one of the days that i will remember for the rest of my life. i hope its the same for you too. :) whatever we may do, you are here for me &  i'll be there for you. remember, im your 24/7 girlfriend! :D 

right from the start, i have put my 100% trust in you. trusting you is my decision, proving me right is your choice. & i believe, i never made the wrong choice. <3 thank you for everything that you have given me the past 17 months. it meant alot to me. i hope all that doesnt change. im not perfect, neither are you. thats why i dont expect you to be a perfect boyfriend. i always believe that its okay to fight, its okay to have disagreements because thats what makes us stronger.

honestly, i dont need someone that sees whats good about me. i need someone that sees the bad, and still wants me. in the past 16 years of my life, everyone that i met asked me why my eyes were that weird. but i do not have an answer to that. the only thing i know is that it has been like this since i was 4 years old. its not like i had a choice & come on, i dont want to look like this too. i faced discrimination at times but well, those are what made me who i am today. baby, youre the first person that i met that has never asked me why my eyes were the way they were & has never treated me like a different person. that meant alot to me because you accept me for who i am. i still remember the day when i had my operation, before i went in, you told me 'i dont think you need the operation. you look pretty just the way you are'. do you know that my heart melted when i heard that. thank you baby, for accepting me for who i am. :') 

i love you. i always will.

`cause there will be no sunlight, if i lose you baby. there will be no clear skies, if i lose you baby. just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same. if you walk away, everyday it will rain, rain, rain. promise. promise me you wont leave.

whats wrong with this world?

today, i learnt a new lesson. i should have known not to trust people so much. sometimes, i really think that im so gullible. someone, that i trust alot alot alot, did something that i dont think i can forgive him for. its beyond my principles. i totally hate it when people does that. forget it, i dont think i will ever trust him that much again. just going to take it as a lesson learnt. seriously, fuck this world. i was just trying to help but somehow, someone is going to twist it again. okay, its going to be my fault. it really doesnt pay to be too kind. FML. 

SBM FMO 2012!

HELLO.

SOOO, NYP'S SBM FRESHMEN ORIENTATION IS OFFICIALLY OVER! ^^ ITS A 2 DAYS ORIENTATION IN SCHOOL & WE HAD A REALLY FUN TIME BONDING WITH NEW CLASSMATES & OGL. IT WAS REALLY FUN! THERE WERE TALKS, DRY GAMES & WET GAMES & MASS DANCE! THIS WOULD BE ONE OF THE ORIENTATION THAT I CANT FORGET. HEEHEE. 

i shall let the photos do the talking! 

 HS1201! LOVE THIS CLASS! WE GOT BONDED VERY QUICKLY & IT WAS CERTAINLY A FUN TIME WITH THEM! IM SURE WE WILL HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD! :)

 THIS IS MY SUPER FRIENDLY BROTHER PLUS OGL OF ANOTHER CLASS! ITS A PITY THAT HE WASNT THE OGL FOR MY CLASS IF NOT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN HELL LOTS OF FUN! ^^ WELL, HE IS REALLY NICE TO ME & GAVE ME SUPER SPECIAL TREATMENTS BY POURING A PACKET OF WATER ON ME DURING WET GAMES! UGHHHHH. HAHAHA I WILL GET MY REVENGE! THANKS FOR BEING SUCH AN AWESOME BROTHER! SEE YA IN NYP! ;) 

SMB FMO 2012 ROCK ON! 

FRESHIES AS WELL AS THE OGL ARE ALL AWESOME! STAY AWESOME NYP-IANS. :)

im positive that i didnt make the wrong decision to enter NYP now! their orientation is really awesome! & the people there are friendly too! looking forward to the new school year! 

SBM SUP SUP OIIIIII! ^^

FRESHMEN YEAR.

was working over the last weekend at suntec convention centre, invest fair! :) working for SPH to ask people to subscribe to their newspapers (so practically, im selling newspapers -.-) was working with my sis & 2 other guys that we just knew! it was certainly fun working with them! hahah they are really funny after we got to know each other better! but, met a perv there too. disgusting asshole. 

but oh well, it was fun working & making new friends! ^^

ORIENTATION IS TOMORROW. OHMYGOD. :( IM SO NOT PREPARED FOR SCHOOL. ESPECIALLY WHEN DURING ORIENTATION, GOTTA MAKE NEW FRIENDS. BUT WELL, A BRAND NEW BEGINNING, A BRAND NEW START. WHY NOT? :) LIKE WHAT THEY SAY, THE BEGINNING IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST. I BELIEVE IT WILL GET BETTER! LALALA. 

orientation is like from 8.30am - 9pm. the shit right? -.- 

im so not going to get used to school life without those usual faces around. its gonna be so weird walking around, seeing unfamiliar faces. still, secondary school is the best. i really miss those days when i was in secondary school! :( i miss my 4E1`11. :( i miss my schoolmates. :(

but, everything's gonna end some day. no matter what, theres an end to everything. whether we want it to or not. 

i hope that everyone will have a brand new beginning to their life! take care my friends. :)

OKAY BYE. :)

it must have been love.

hey dearest,

today is your birthday. happy 17th birthday! its really great knowing you & being there for you. im glad youre strong enough to fight for our love, knowing that no matter how many times we fought, youre always there for me, giving me the courage to move on & ask me not to give up. youve always been there for me & always willing to accompany me with an open arms. :) its your birthday! please be more mature & stop being so childish! HAHAHA dont give me your innocent look when you know you did something wrong! dont work on me! hee. its a sad thing that we cant celebrate your birthday this year. :( because of your mother. well, i hope you enjoyed this morning short time together baby! dont worry, we will find a day after poly starts & go out for a mini belated celebration okay? & you will get your present then too! ^^ thank you for everything! enjoy your day to fullest yeah (although i know you prolly wont) ? 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY! 

in life, we learn lessons. sometimes we learn it the hard way, sometimes we learn too late. for me, i learn lessons too late. i need to say im sorry & this is the best way i know how. we had a big fight just yesterday. it totally suck. :( im sorry love. its all because of me. i will try to change okay? i promise. :)

Remember you're with me, I'm glad that you're mine and I'm yours. But just remember some things, I hate it when we fight, I hate the way we ignore each other, I hate when I'll cry every night. Nothings will ever make me smile if we let each other down. Baby don't forget that you're the only one who'll make me smile, you're the only one who'll make my day. don't forget, that you're my everything. Remember the day we met? We did not expect us to be what we are today. But I realised for somethings, I never ever thought a guy like you would ever come to me. Of all why you? Perhaps you will be my other half. Nothing can describe the way I feel when I'm with you. You're the sunrise to my day, I'll do the same to you too. When I need you, I know you will be there. I know you're trying your best. Baby please don't have any doubts, after every down we face. I really love you, with my only heart and sou. You're my only one. xoxo *hearts*

iloveyou. <3<3

loved ones.

this year, i have been dealing alot with loved ones passing away & all. the feeling really suck yknow?

went to 扫墓 with my grandmother & uncle today. went to my great-grandmother's tomb & the temple which my grandfather's ashes are at now. its my first time doing all these things as i was busy with school the past few years & couldnt go with them. we went to my great-grandmother's tomb first & went to my grandmother's mother which is my great-grandma's tomb as it was nearby. before we even reached there, she was tearing alr. i could see how much she miss her mum & it was even more heartbreaking that they havent went to pay respects to her yet.

yesterday, she told me many stories about the early days. about my grandfather, about her, about her mum & all. after listening, i suddenly feel that teenagers nowadays are really lucky. its unlike those days when they were often bullied by siblings & had to do all sorts of chores. 我们真的是身在福中不知福. 

listening to stories of her past, somehow makes me feel sort of enlightened but it also makes me feel that she is really pitiful. :( i never knew that her past is that horrible. :( 

okay bye.