SHAGGED.

just reached home from school! ._. damn freaking tired. OMG.

Kay anws, failed my MYE like shit. srsly. gotta be the worst results ever. :( disappointed but well, what can I do but work very very very very very hard for O lvl!

Lalala. getting over with the sad stuffs!
Attended the first day of ADAM'S KHOO MOTIVATIONAL WORKSHOP today! :D
Truthfully, I think I was kinda motivated. Although the hours were damn long, but I think its worth it. :) the trainers were funny and friendly! Crack jokes to make us laugh through out the day!
Hope that the rest of the days will be as good as today?
:)
To quote yeah? 'Fake until you make it' so true laa!

Alright, gonna sleep! So byebye! :D  



Sometimes, really wonder if this is a good thing or a bad thing? /:

fucking hurt.

I see. after 15 years++ of living together, this is all that you understand of me. it makes me realise that you don't understand/trust/care about me at all. sometimes really don't see the point of staying here.
I bet you don't know how hurting your words are huh? never have I heard you said that to me. and that was the reason why I don't even want to hear another word from you and hanged your call. sometimes, I really wonder if I belong here.
One day, if I disappear, will you be worried? will you start looking for me? will you even care? I don't think you will.



Darling, how I wish you are here now, telling me, everything is fine. But you aren't. :'(

I've learned alot these past years, through my fake smiles and unseen tears.

Friends arent always forever,

love doesnt always last.

XOXO,

• OH YEAH. MTL INTENSIVE IS FINALLY OVER!
• but im definitely going to miss it. :(
• well, this would means that O lvl is nearing.
• OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
• IM SCARED. AHHHHHHHH
• sigh.
• strangers > friends > best friends > friends > strangers.
• this is a vicious cycle isnt is? so sick of it. so be it luh. i dont give a damn anymore.

take a step back. fucking look at yourself. you are human. you are beautiful. and you can be anything. you can be everything. do not hate because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly and worthless. do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. cry when you need to, and let go when its time. dont hang onto painful memories because youre afraid to forget. let go of  the things that are in the past. forget things that arent worth remembering. stop taking things for granted. stop taking life for granted. live for something. live for yourself. fall in love. fall out of love. fall in love. fall out of love. do this over and over until you know what is really is to love someone. question things. tell people how you feel. sleep under the stars. create. imagine. inspire. share something wonderful. make something beautiful then destroy it. meet new people. make someone's day. follow your dreams. live your life to its full potential. let go of all the horrible things in your life and just live. and one day, when youre old, look back with no regrets. :)

im going to live my life in this manner, from now on. im not going to give a fuck who those hurt me once. i gave chances but it was not cherished. so whatever alright?

k whatever, bye.

you know you truly love someone, when the mere thought of losing them brings you to tears.

i really am afraid of losing you. :')

loves,

1. survived 4 days od MTL intensive with tons and tons of paper 1 and 2 to do -.-
2. BORING LIFE.
3. but well, last day tmr! jiayous! HAHAH
4. gave up on doing today's homework alr. damn tired.
5. cut my little pinky while slicing papaya :(
6. theres blood and its freaking painful. boohoo.
7. gotta get ready to sleep soon! my eyes are closing alr. *yawns*

sooooo, BUHBYE!



i just want you to stay with me forever. possible?

FUCKING DULAN LIKE SHIT -.- FUCK OFF LUHHHHHH

1) MTL intensive started today. well, better than I expected. hahah

2) I happily thought that it was time to go home at 1245, totally forgetting about baseline ICT test. ._.

3) and it sucked. failed the test. I'M SRSLY A COMPT. IDIOT so no point taking that test laa. waste my time only. 

4) still need play some NE game after that. 

5) but well, still a pretty good day in overall! :)

6) and this stupid idiot fucked up woman had to spoil my mood. srsly MYOB luh. assholes. 

7) ugh. >:( 

Shall end my post here before really start cursing them. -.-

Shall go do some homework and get it off my mind NOWWW 

So BYEBYE. 

HAPPY 6TH MONTH-SARY TO YOU DARLING

183 days and still counting on, ♥

i love you, my awesome boyf

eyes are swollen like a pig -.-

1. wasted my saturday afternoon at tuition. ._. damn boring. 

2. don't see the reason why must I go for tuition since MYE is over. 

3. otw home now! finally. 

4. feeling kinda moody ever since last night. bleah. 

5. had been offered a job next week. but there's MTL intensive and motivational workshop. guess I will have to give it up? wtf :( 

6. 6th month-sary tmr! <3 

7. alright, BUHBYE. 

Will you be mine forever? 

there is always hope, if you believe.

• practical exam today was fine :) kinda screwed chemistry up though. haiz.
• was quarantined in the hall for a freaking 4 hours. wtf. damn sian only.
• finally felt freedom when we were allowed to leave HAHAHA
• went thomson to have lunch with dear ;)
• happened to see kevin ke there too! 
• some time alone.
• HOME SWEET HOME.

was so damn tired that i fell asleep on my bed after i reached home. ._.

OMG. slept from 5+ till 7. damn shuang, hahah

studied all the landforms for geog and starting on the strategies NOW.

so BYEBYE. ^^

im afraid of not being with you.. :(

PEEKABOO

1. today, school was fine
2. CL oral was okay but totally screw listening compre.
3. thanks to cramps and giddy-ness. fuck it. -.-
4. had a fun time laughing with the others watching videos from youtube HAHAHAHA
5. KFC w/ serene baolan shengda nicholas & jerome.
6. went to north point w/ jerome for a short shopping trip. hee.
7. got some stuffs and bus-ed home.
8. some time alone.
9. HOME SWEET HOME.
10. frustrated over tmr's practical. quarantined till 2pm. zzz.

that was my day! :)

had a short but meaningful talk with darling about LIFE & OUR FUTURE.

kinda like a lecture but enjoyable HAHAH

IM SLEEPY SO I SHALL GO GET SOME SLEEP NOWW.

BYEBYE!

i cant promise to fix all your problems but i can promise you wont have to face it alone. (L) XOXO :)

I NEED YOU NOW.

500th post :)

Well, totally screwed amaths paper 2 today. uhm kinda wondering if I will get single digit upon 100. x: highly possible. anws, its over :D and I'm happy that scored pretty el for EL oral ;) hahaha

Pretty long day today and hoping that I can sleep well tonight since tmr's a public holiday! :)

What's wrong with me these days? :(
Keep thinking about pessimistic stuffs and only end up with myself being sad -.- wtf.
I mean there's a reason why I thought of those stuffs but, the only result of all tose wondering thoughts is just crying ._. bleah swollen eyes again. /: but well, came to realise that bing alone is actually good because when you're alone, nobody can hurt you.

Think I'm gonna sleep alr in case my mind drifts off somewhere again ._.
So BYEBYE and GOODNIGHT :)



There are so many things that I want to tell you but know they would hurt you so I choose to keep them in me and let them hurt me instead :)

why are kids always the ones that are suffering in broken families? most of the time, its not the kids' fault that their parents divorce right? zzz.

Was so pissed off in the afternoon laa. -.-
The reason why you guys filed for divorce wasn't us. that was what happened 7 years ago. that time I was just primary 4, sis primary 5 and bro just 3 years old. yeah, back then we were very young. y'all thought we didn't know what was going on but deep inside, we know more than you expected us to. and we still clearly rmb that day when he left us. it wasn't easy looking at him leave us but after awhile, we got used to it and life goes on without him, probably better.
We've gotten to a point that we are numb to all these shit alr. its between you and him. do you have to drag us into this? I know its impossible to ask you to forgive and forget cause what he has done is unforgivable and we all know that. but using us as your tools in getting revenge at him? wtf. seriously.

And yknow what? because of the both of you two, this family lacks love at times and seriously, this feels more like just a place for me to rest because I no longer feel the love. you ask me why I go out almost every week and come home late during weekdays? this is the reason why.

Yeah. I'm disappointed. by the way you're treating us. like your tools for revenge.

sian-sation -.-

what a great way to start a sunday morning. ._. woke up with a mega headache and an empty stomach. ugh. 

and last night didnt had a good sleep too. keep waking up in the middle of the night. probably because just changed my bolster and really not used to my bolster being so fat. -.- bleah

worst still, gotta study for amaths paper 2 later also :o totally hate it. dk why they like to drag exams for so long. sigh. 

update later :) byebye 

i miss you. alot alot alot. 

you make my dream come true,

HELLO :)

FRIDAY, THE 13TH

love is just a word, but you give it definition. ♥

lower pierce reservoir >> wheelock place >> ion orchard >> time alone >> home

simply but enjoyable day :) thanks baby 

I love you silly boy :)

HELLO :)

My BB been dead for the past few days but went to have it repaired alr :) heehee

Sooooooooo exams are soon coming to an end! YAY! :D
Next week are the last few papers for MYE alr! hahaha not really pinning high hopes on getting good results for this exam. been sick the whole month -.- zzz

Anws, went with boyf ytd to go and repair my BB and went for steamboat buffet at NEX! totally awesome! the food is superb! like seriously hahaha we shld go again after exam! ;)

Well, pretty drained from studying for the papers and the good thing is hve no paper the next two days and no need go school and can sy a home sleep like a pig! ^^ hahaha

Okay :) before ending off, just wanna say smth.
The reason live not to please you guys. like come on laa everybody has their own lives and you want to interfere in everything? seriously dk what is your prob. just trying to be nice and you give that fucked up face for? Like I even offend you? -.- please laa before you judge others, take a look in the mirror first yeah?
One day, you will get your just deserts. that's what I call karma. :)

Was so pissed off just now laa -.- irritating. zzz

Anws gonna get ready for bed alr :) tired. so BYEBYE and GOODNIGHT!



You can always make me smile ;)

FML.

HELLO :)

MYE has officially started today and it suck. -.-
Who the hell takes exam with a fever and headache. Zzz. Screw EL paper 2. Srsly. the words were literally spinning right in front of me. Pro right. Wanted to give up on that paper but well, completed it in the end. :)

Chinese paper tmr! YAY. Hahaha

At clinic now waiting to go and see doc. Need medicine to get rid of the headache. Ugh.
Why do I have to be sick at this point of time!? :( :( boohoo.

Gotta go! My turn alr! BYEBYE!





What if one day, I turn and walk away? Will you chase after me? <3

i know you care,

HELLO :)

Its 11.40pm nowww and I'm supposed to be asleep but am not. :( can't sleep. I feel freaking terrible now due to the stupid fever which has come to haunt me now and I feel like vomitting. :(
Its the MYE next week. Why do I have to be sick now!? :(

Anws, update on recent events yeah?
Sooooooooooooooooooo,

FRIDAY 29 APRIL
Sports carnival in school wasn't that bad after all :)
Went for mass hip hop workout instead of 50m relay. They cancelled that event cause there wasn't any place for it. -.- oh well. Had some fun too :)

went to pick kevin up at his school tgt with jerome & christine. HAHAH had a great time laughing at him. :D
Reached downtown east! Went to get lunch from burger king! Queued up for tickets to wild wild wet and off we go! We were all like small kids who are hyper the moment we enter ^^

3 rounds of SHOIK RIVER » UHU LA LA LA » KIDS PLAYGROUND » SLIDE UP (make me scream till my throats hurts. -.-) » 2 rounds of SHOIK RIVER again (HAHAH) » started to rain :(
went to bathe at 2+ due to change in weather and went for teabreak at BBQ CHICKEN @ EHUB instead. Enjoyable and filling meal!
Laughed like a total mad woman there. :D

Homed after that!

SAT 30 APRIL
Skipped tuition and went to my mum's friend house tgt with my family of course. Had a great time there too! all because of my mum's friend, laughed like shit. HAHAH

SUN 1 MAY
April is now gone and let's embrace may now! :) LOLOL.
Srsly, MAY, you better be good. April was quite bad and this month, I'm having my exams so you had better behave yourself alright!? ._.
Went to find my boyf for breakfast in the morning! :D heehee
He's all sweaty from playing ball but well, it was great morning spent with him! <3

The rest of the day wasn't that good. /:
Took a nap. Arranged my stuffs after I woke up and went to sleep again cause of my mega headache :(
Woke up, didn't feel any better. Till now, still feeling terrible :( luckily there's no school tmr.

I think I better go to sleep soon before the headache acts up again.
BYEBYE and GOODNIGHT :)



Sometimes, I wonder what would happen to me if I never got to meet you. :) <3