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ahgong, today is the 100th day youre gone :( we miss you so much. :(

time flies, 100 days has passed by. time, can you seriously just slow down!?

18 months together.

HAPPY 18TH MONTHSARY TO YOU BABY! <3

i just want you to know, i really love you. i really do. i never want to lose you. i know its cheesy but this is how i feel. i know im not the best thing out there but im trying to be one of your best ever, thank you baby, for choosing such a messed up girl like me to be your girlfriend. thank you for being mine. i really cant see myself with anyone else but you. i know perhaps i say i love you too many times, but each time i say it, my feelings grow more & more for you. 

its true. i have thoughts of leaving you before. i was thinking perhaps your life would be better without me because i feel like im burdening you. baby, i just want you to know, if one day i leave you. i choose to leave not because of my own selfish reasons but i just know that things will be worse if i stay. i hope one day i wont have to do that. you mean so much more to me than you will ever know. <3

i know im demanding, im fussy, i always like to guailan you, im not perfect. :( but i am trying my best to be a better girlfriend for you. but, im not perfect. neither are you. to say the truth, you really piss me off at times HAHAH stop giving me the innocent look when you know you have done something wrong okay! 

(read more in the card & the message i send you last night!)

thanks for coming to NYP to pick me up after school! ^^ 

went to suntec for dinner & we had astons! the food is cheap & we had a filling meal too! heehee & thanks for the fondue treat baby! 

its been a long long long time since we went out to celebrate! sorry that you had to skip CCA just to make time for me! i really appreciate it alot! heehee. 

i had a fun time with you today!

this is the card that i forgot to pass to you just now /: haiz, sotong me! give you the next time i see you! remind me okay! heehee.

i love you. i always will. <3

no measure of time with you will be long enough. but lets start with forever.

SO PISSED OFF NOW :( 

kena sabo for nothing. tsk. 

too hurt.

im a strong girl who keeps her stuffs in line. even when i have tears streaming down my face, i always manage to say : im fine. 

this is what happened too many times. too much that im starting to feel sick. i feel like im about to explode anytime. im like two different person at home & at school. im pretty okay in school but as the night starts to set in, my mood starts to change as well. i start to think about negative things & dampen up my day when it could have been better. /: i deserve it huh? 

its time for a change. :)

on a side note, i guess many of you should know about the horrifying ferrari accident? its really scary. you should go watch the footage if you havent. i cant imagine being there witnessing it or involved in the accident *touchwood* seriously. 

i know the driver has paased away alr, but i cant help but say this. isnt it really very overboard? just because of one's recklessness, two others have to die with him. wtf? whats going to happen to that taxi driver's family? whats going to happen that japanese girl's family? they have passed on & thats a fact thatcant be changed. however, they are innocent. they werent the ones that drink & drive but they had to pay for the consequences too. 

how could the family of the ferrari driver still scold netizens about reprimanding the ferrari driver when its clearly his fault? many died because of him. so irresponsible & nonsensical seriously. they lost their family but what about the other two deceased? their family lost them as well. spare a thought for them as well, please. 

& i found it really heartbreaking that the taxi driver was initially brain dead at the hospital, but still fighting for his life. he passed on only when his wife told him that this accident is not his fault. he then closed his eyes with a teardrop falling from his eyes. :'( can you imagine how heartbreaking this scene is? sigh.

i know im kinda overreacting over this issue but i understand how it feels like to lose a loved one. that feeling totally sucks. 

to all deceased, rest in peace. its all over already. 

just a piece of advice for you, my friend. who's the one still holding on? who's the one that said he stopped loving? you dont know how he feel. there are just too many things that you dont know. stop assuming alright? if you really care, have you ever thought about how he would feel if he read that post? he has never stopped loving you. up to now, he still loves you. since you dont know how to appreciate what you had, just let him go. whats the point of posting past videos on FB, writing all these hurtful things on your tumblr? trying to bring back memories or trying to hurt him? stop it will you? its not that he stopped loving you, you are the one who doesnt have eyes to see his love for you. seriously, i think he deserve a better girl than you. just let it go. theres no point holding on alr. to you, if you love someone, that someone need not be the first in your heart. but thats the thing that most people will ask for in a relationship isnt it? is that too much to ask for? i dont think that is, comparing how much he did for you. 

its time for some reflection. im telling you this because i still treat you as my friend. read it or not, i dont care. i have said what i want to say alr. 

too much ranting huh? /: okay byebye.

EFFEVTIVE WRITING SKILLS CLASS. ._.

THIS IS SO BORING YO.

AWESOME PEEPS.

THIS POST, IS DEDICATED TO THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. :)

in no particular order, i shall start my post. 

CHRISTINE YANG ` MY BITCH. 

best friend for 4 years in secondary school. 

im sorry i wasnt there for you when you were feeling upset, im sorry i wasnt there for you 24/7. 

thanks for making my secondary school life a very good one. thanks for being there when i need you. thanks for all those time that we spent having heart to heart talks. :) 

we call each other the most ridiculous names, we bully each other like nobody's business, we laugh like some  mad women, we quarrel, we did almost everything. those are what shaped us today, best friends. 

we said, even when we are going to different polys, we prolly would have lesser time for each other, but we would still be best friends. 

just had a heart to heart talk with her a few days ago, & it was so fun hahah. its been a long long time since we last talked on the phone for almost an hour. i miss those good days. but well, we are both busy with different things in our lifes. /: 

BITCH, im glad youre happy with life in poly. prolly having better times compared to secondary school. you said theres a girl thats just like me. (hopefully she didnt replace me? /: ) i hope we can find more time to meetup & catchup more! i love you, twinneh <3

'A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.' - Walter Winchell.

HAN JIA DING ` MY BROTHER.
waaaaaa, want find one photo of you alone also so hard! ._. but managed to find one! finally hahah.
friends for almost 3 years. i wouldnt have got to know him if not for her. i remember back then, the 5 of us were known as the 豆豆 clique. sound so silly but i had fun with them. :) but slowly things changed & our conversations got lesser & lesser. however, that didnt change our friendship. we only got closer when i got into NYP, after the freshmen orientation. you told me, i cry nit because im weak but because i have been strong for too long. i guess i know what you mean now. :)
thanks for being there for me when i really needed someone & thanks for listening to all my never ending troubles. thanks for showing me care & concern & thanks for being so nice to me. thanks for lending a listening ear when you are not having a good time too as well & thanks for making time to talk to me. he's perhaps the one of those guys who treat me super nice besides my boyfriend or secondary school close friends. thanks kor. :)
must be wondering why im so close to him right? because he can understand how i feel. hes the only one that i know that has been through what im going through now. the feeling where no one knows how you feel really sucks. i thank god that i have him who is always willing to help me out. i appreciate that alot.
even though we are not really siblings, i really feel that youre a big brother to me. :) thanks for everything. you stay strong too alright? time will heal everything. anything can come find me, i will always be here. ^^ i love you (as a brother) <3

JEROME LEE ` MY BOYFRIEND.

(HEEHEE IGNORE HAOWEN'S FACE BEHIND. :P )
1 year 4 months. who would have thought we would be together for so long? but its true, we are still together now.
对他, 我有说不完的对不起和谢谢.
im sorry for all those heartbreaks that i caused you, im sorry for all those days & nights that i messed up. im sorry for taking you for granted at times, im sorry for throwing my tantrums at you. im sorry for being such a sucky girlfriend, sometimes i dont think i deserve you. im sorry for those times where i said hurtful words that hurt you & i only apologise after that when i could have stopped myself from saying all those things. im sorry for asking too much from you, im sorry for being so demanding. im sorry for needing you so much. im sorry for those times when i keep pushing you away but you know, that wasnt what i really want.
thank you for your love through this 16 months, thank you for all those encouraging words. thank you for all those small thoughts, thank you for the gifts. thank you for staying by my side, thank you for not giving up on me, not giving up on us. thank you for all those memories that we have created together. thank you for being there for me. thank you for seeing the real me & still willing to stick around.thank you for giving in always just so that we can maintain a quarrel-free relationship.thnak you for trying to put a smile on my face every single day.
i know you have never blamed me for all those things that i did wrong, but thats what making me very guilty as well. /:
i can never find another guy that love me like you do. perhaps not in this lifetime.
life with me hasnt always been an easy ride. thanks for staying by my side & thank you for putting in so much effort in keeping our relationship going. i get jealous over little things & i know that make me look so silly. but hey, i get jealous, i get mad, i get worried, i get curious but thats all only because i care.
baby, please always know that even if i have a hundred reasons to leave you, i'd still look for that one reason to fight for you. thats my promise. <3
OH & IF YOURE MINE, YOURE ONLY MINE! CALL ME SELFISH BUT IM SORRY, IM NOT SHARING! ^^
i love you.

im the kind of girl who overthink too much & always dampen up her day. /: i used to want to be remembered as the girl who smile even when her heart is broken, & the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldnt brighten up her own. however now, i know i cant always acheive what i want to do but i know i tried. after so long of trying to stay strong, my walls are startign to crumble down. i need a break from these forced laughters & fake smiles. many a time, im fine, im just not happy.
i wake up each morning, thanking god that i can still see a better tomorrow & that i have such wonderful friends around me. they are the ones that care about me & still continue to stay even after seeing the real me. thanks guys. <3
i always wonder, how would life be without you guys. miserable maybe? /:

HEEHEE ENOUGH RANTING & MUSHY WORDS. BYE.

its been almost 3 months that my grandfather have left this world but somehow, i cant help but think about him at times. so many things remind me of him. i just miss him so much. :( 

i regret for those things that i have not done for him when he was still around. now that hes gone, there are so many things that i regret so much. :( but nothing can be done anymore. 

now, i believe he has gone to reunite with his parents & are watching over us. i miss him so much. :(

had my first ICA test today! for business writing skills! well, it was not too bad! but my teacher asked me after the test, 'so how, can pass?' i was like 'should be' then she say 'you better be' in a joking but not so joking way. /: which make me panic so much. bleah. 

having 2 marketing presentations this friday but my sore throat havent even recover yet :( how how how. huuhuu. sucks. 

OKAY BYE.

SORE THROAT :(

AWWWWWW NOOOOOO. IM HAVING SORE THROAT & IM LOSING MY VOICE :( TO MAKE IT  WORSE, I HAVE 2 PRESENTATIONS FOR MARKETING NEXT FRIDAY. :( & FROM PAST EXPERIENCES, IT TAKE AT LEAST 2 WEEKS TO RECOVER. HOPE MY VOICE DOESNT GET WORSE. PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! :( HUUHUU. 

& I INJURED MY LEG ON FRI. STILL SO PAINFUL. KICKED THE CHAIR LEG BY ACCIDENT & BECAUSE THERE WASNT A PLASTIC COVER OVER IT, I GOT A CUT ON M LEG & A BIG PLASTER OVER IT. :(( SAD GIRL. 

I JUST FINISH MY MARKETING SLIDES. T.T STILL NOT FULLY COMPLETED YET THOUGH. SHALL CONTINUE TMR. IMMA GOING TO SLEEP.

OH, THAT CAT POOP & PEE ON MY SOFA!! >:( ITS LIKE SO WET & YUCKY. 

OKAY, GOODNIGHT. BYEBYE.

A NEW LIFE.

SUP PEEPS ;)

I STILL MISS SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE. :(

so, its already the 3rd week of school & im finally settling down. so many modules to handle, so many projects to do. so pekcek. -.- & its all so business-y. all the POA, marketing, statistical theory, business writing, WORSE OF ALL, ECONS. SRSLY. SUCKS TTM. 

but this girl here, made my life in poly better than i thought. heehee my miss sotong! 

hope everyone's doing well in poly as well! hope to see you guys soon! i miss all of you so much! :(

OKAY BYE.