today wasnt a really happy day for me. :( suddenly all the new year clothes dont look nice anymore. boohoo. :(
as the days passes, i miss you so much more. :( very very not used to seeing you for so many days~ :( finally can contact you, but the internet connection there sucks srsly. come back real soon okay? <3
to be honest, i cant imagine my life without you anymore. you are a part of my daily routine, a day feels so incomplete if i dont get to talk to you, ive tried so hard not to get so attached. but i realize how worse my life would probably be if i didnt met you. how lame would my days be if you werent in them. please dont leave okay? i dont want to ever lose you. <3<3
feel that we can relate to this song alot! listen to the lyrics! <3
sian day today. cooped up at home for most of the day. :( nothing much to say. dont really look forward to the new year. :( hope tmr will be a better day.
(ORH. GIVE THIS KIND OF FACE UH!?!?!? SO FIERCE FOR WHAT UH. HAHAHA)
2nd day! :) heehee well, so fast uh? the day is going to end soon! 6 more days baby! ^^ heehee finally can talk to you through FB! like a happy girl only. <3 but you keep on off on off. sigh, but its okay! aiyooooo, uncle ah. i tell you liao, overseas calls & sms very expensive leh! i know its nice of you to call & sms me, but very expensive you know? :) heh.
我今天受了很多委屈 lehhh. :( discovered alot of things, unintentionally. youre right. fake people all around. especially those. :( totally ruin my day. :( tell you more when you are back. hate them. :(
anw, thanks for sending me a text just now! it really made my day! ^^ heh & of course talking to you nowww on FB! faster come back okay? i got alot of things want to complain!! nobody to sit down there & listen to me rant for hours. FASTER COME BACK LEHHHH. eh, got buy anything for me not!? hahaha *winkwink* you want know something? I MISS YOU. HAHAHA
okay, enjoy yourself there! i love you! :*:*:*
this song is for you! <3<3
went back to school for band! :) not practice. hahaha went back to help! saw darling & lishan there too! aww, miss them so much!
went for dinner & movie with tuesday clique after that! went to watch 龙众舞 (DANCE DANCE DRAGON), the storyline was like so so but the baby is like awww so cute! HAHAHA. <3
caught up with them for a short while & went home!
eh, please. you know whats called dk the facts, dont anyhow say? bitch. go fuck yourself la okay? keep your big mouth shut. youre not any better. look at yourself in the mirror? i hope you dont faint CAUSE YOU WILL SEE A UGLY BITCH THERE. HAH.
HMPH. SO PISSED.
okayyyy, im going to watch my show alr! goodnight! BYEBYE.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
idk if its me or if its the night that making me feel so insecure. my mind runs wild at times when im all alone, trying to get some sleep/trying to get some alone time. very wild, in fact. i start thinking of the future, thinking about all the negative things & end up crying myself to sleep. adding trouble to my life right? i know. how i wish i can stop my mind from all these negative thoughts. & the only way is to sleep. sighhhh.
baby, i miss you so much right now. i was happy through most part of the day but idk why im feeling so sad now. i want a hug from you, telling me its okay nothing's gonna happen. :(
THIS BOY WENT BACK TO MALACCA, FIRST THING THIS MORNING.
i miss him so so so so so so so much. <3<3<3
cried alot yesterday night. held it in for the whole day. it felt terrible. i guess i just cant bear to let him leave, just not used to life without him. say that im dependent on him? yeah, i admit. without him around, theres no one to sweettalk me, no one to make decisions for me, no one to hug me, no one to cheer me up, no one for me to disturb. cried so much that my eyes were damn swollen this morning. FML. but i told myself i will be strong, waiting for him to come back. :)
was so worried the whole morning about him. worried because idk where he is, idk how he is, idk if he is safe. BUT! he called me at around 4+ & told me he reach there safely le! finally can put my mind at ease. :)))) super happy to hear his voice because i didnt see him since yesterday afternoon!
he wont be in singapore for 8 days. :( so longggg. so not used to having him around. so not used to not receiving his goodmorning & goodnight texts. it sucksss. got through the first day! 7 days left! ^^ maybe he will come back earlier? heehee. just hoping to see him real soon!
oh well, will be posting every single day for the next 8 days till he come back! (eh! i kept my promise okay! hahaha) well, keeping myself entertained, letting him know im safe, whatever. hahaha
baby, im fine! :) i hope you are too! hows seeing your grandparents after not seeing them for about 2 years? miss them so much right? i bet they miss you too! & i miss you too! hahaha abit extra. eh, you never keep your promise lehhhh. you say will contact me, contact your head! hahahaha but i understand its hard to find internet/wifi there. ;) no worries okay? just keep yourself safe! &&& overseas calls very expensive lehhh! dont need always call me okay? i know you miss me but no need like that luh. :p HAHAHA. SO BHB. just come back soon okay? & you this pi gu! say want help me to carry drinks back to my house for CNY in the end, carry until go back malacca uh?!?!?!? !@#$%^&*)(!@#$%^&*)( make me wake up so early in the morning & went down to help me ahma push 5 big cartons of drinks home. my arms nearly break. T.T dont friend you then you know!?!? hahah & yknow something? my mummy prepared a ang pao for you lehhh! inside how much idk luhhh, but WHAT IS THIS. SHE LIKE YOU SO MUCH UH UH UH UH. EH THEN I DONT HAVE UH?!? WHAT IS THIS. HAHAHAH okay luh, i dont want disturb you alr ( bet youre laughing when you see this! ugh, evil pi gu!) lastly, my flu is better alr! but still not fully recovered yet! i will take care of myself! you too okay? :) muacks muacks! i love youuuuuuu! :*:*:*
baby, watch this! this is sooooo sweeeeeet!
i would die, not being able to see you for so long. :( not kidding.
(this picture is for you, baby! i know you miss me! ^^ hahaha)
anws! was busy busy the whole day! went market with my mum & ahma this morning! bought 5 cartons of drinks & mandarin oranges back for CNY! i tell you, its freaking heavy!! my arms nearly broke. -.- sweating like a mad cow when i came home. tsk.
went to BBQ bak kwa when i reached home! (smelly alr, might as well finish all the smelly chores first. hahah) pretty easy job! no prob for me! ;)
accompanied my mum back to her office to get some stuffs & 90% of her colleagues asked her this question :
'your daughter uh? this year sec 2 uh?'
I WAS LIKE HELLO. IM TURNING 17 THIS YEAR. PLEASE. -.-
i heard this like over 10 times today. but, i heard compliments too! saying im pretty & tall & has good figure! hahaha LOLOL ^^
came back home & removed my bling bling nail polish & tried french manicure but failed. :( & now my nails are naked. HAHAH shall try again tmr afternoon! since im so freeeee ~~~
okayyyy, my baby called me just now & told me to sleep early! hahaha i shall be a good girl! since im waking up at 8+ to go cushion cover shopping with my mummy & ahma tomorrow! :)
been busy for the couple of days, deciding which poly & which course to go to. /: pekcek ttm. well, submitted the JAE form a few minutes ago. hope everything will go well! :))) *keeping my fingers crossed*
went to USS with babylove & a group of friends to celebrate valerie's birthday! ^^ heehee went there for the first time & wow, it was fun! took a roller coaster ride for the first time & i nearly died. T.T it was really scary but shoik! hahaha sorry babylove, your ear must be hurting from my screaming & i injured you as well. sorry!
it was a fun day! gonna go there again! heehee!
oh, i sprained my ankle there. ): didnt see a step & missed it & my ankle suffered. tsk. had to walk around USS with a sprained ankle. FML.
been PMS-ing alot these days & the one that suffer the most is my boyf. ): sorry baby, i shouldnt have take it out on you. getting paranoid & crying over stuffs. sigh. baby, actually i dont want you to go back to malaysia for CNY. but i know i cant be so selfish. afterall, you didnt go back last year for my sake. i will be fine de. :) i love you. <3<3
been a pretty gloomy week ever since monday. ): just hope that everything will clear soon! im sure it will! afterall, CNY is around the corners! $.$ heehee. more $$ coming in! & going to look for a stable job! went to work for one day & quit. fuck the people there seriously. assholes. -.-
i love my nails! <3 super niceeeeeeee. heehee. all ready for my relative's wedding dinner this sun! ^^ good food & pretty bride! woah, jealous!
they have been with me through the 4 years in YCKSS. ^^ same class in sec 1 & sec 2! same CCA. they added colours to my life & are always there for me. <3<3 love them truck lots!
AWESOME PEOPLE ROCKS.
went for eye operation on 14 dec! look at the 2 stickers on my forehead. -.- i know i look retarded with that. boohoo.
know what this is? its freakinggggg painful when they put the needle in. T.T & even more painful when the nurse apply anasthetic medicine through this! (as in, the medicine is in a syringe & she put it through a hole on top of that thing) but well, the medicine really works wonder. i was unconcious(sp?) very soon & when i woke up, the operation is over alr! ^^
see this boy? <3<3
he rushed down to the hospital to pei me for a short wile before my operation & rushed down to work. during his break, he rushed down to the hospital AGAIN, just to make sure im fine.
he came to my house everyday after my operation, to take care of me & clean my eyes for me. its really very dirty as 'juices' would be produced after the operation & when it dried up, its really disgusting. YUCK. but he came everyday & dont mind it being dirty, & clean it up for me! :')
he would do anything just to make sure im happy. heehee.
31st december 2011, 404 days of being together. ^^
no doubt, the journey till now, had been tough. BUT!! it has all been worth it. he showed me that he really love me & will be there for me whenever i need a listening ear/a shoulder to lean on. <3<3 thats all i need.
he may not be very good-looking, he may not be there for me always, he may have the ideal boyfroend i have in mind. he is not perfect. & im not either. i dont need him to be perfect. i just need someone who is willing to stay, no matter what happens. <3<3 baby, just know that im glad to have you. :')
today, is the last day of 2011. ))): why did this year pass by so fast!? tmr is the start of 2012! & its just a few days away from the release of the O level 2011 result. :o AHHHHHHHHHHH. TOTALLY FREAKING OUT. hope everything will turn out fine. *keeping my fingers crossed*
anw, i hope that everyone will have a great year ahead! HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE EVERYONE! ^^ HEEHEE.
sooooo, its a new year tmr & its time to set new year's resolution again!
pray hard that O LEVEL result will turn out well!
study hard (ermmm, okay luh, maybe?)
make new friends & keep the old ones close! :)
learn more skills
be a better daughter, sister, friend & girlfriend! <3<3
SMILE & ENJOY LIFE EVERYDAY. & MOST IMPORTANTLY DONT LOOK BACK IN LIFE.
so whats yours?!?!? :D
*MY NAILS DIARY*
HEEHEE. NAIL DESIGN FOR NOV & DEC. ^^ NICEEEEE~?
going for countdown later with babylove & friends.
